Life: my struggles

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic
Just a story inspired by my life. But made less painful and more happy. Oh and the names have been changed just in case any of my friends stumble across it.

Submitted: December 24, 2013

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I'm going to tell him, I think to myself. Then I repeated the sentence out loud to Rachel who was one of the few people I knew who were as messed up as I was.
"Really?" She inquires. "Are you sure it wouldn't make him feel uncomfortable around you?"
"Well, I'll just have to risk it." She looks at me and sighs 
"Well if you think you can manage it, then good luck."
I walk down through the corridor towards the lunch hall, I never eat anymore. So I don't spend that much time in here. I prefer the peaceful quiet I find in the libarry.There he is, Andrew with his short blond hair. he never changes the style of it much I dont think he can with his double crown. But I would't want him to change it, I like it, no him, exactly how he is. He looks over to me and my heart just stops, for a male I don't seem to be any diffrent than the worst female when it comes to this whole dating fiasco. I don't know what to do when I'm around him, I just seem to end up lost in the sea of Andrew. Taking a deep breath I walk towards my best friends. Sitting down with them the first thing that gets mentioned is my slow walk over to them and the fact I hadn't taken my eyes of Andrew since I entered the room. 
"Actually Andrew, I was wondering if I could have a word outside." He looked puzzled but agreed none the less. Dragging him outside, I asked him a simple sounding question.
"Do you ever think we could be something more than friends?" Ugh I've known him for 6 years, why am I feeling uncomfortable now?
"Yes, I believe we could be." he said cryptically. 
"You mean?" 
"Yes" he whispered in my ear. 

From that moment on we were inseparable, we wouldn't let anyone come between us. We didn't care that no-one knew, we knew and it felt amazing. I could be myself around him, it was brilliant. But the while we were enjoy each other company, I felt an overwhelming desire to kiss him. So l pulled him into a hesitant kiss, but gained more confidence as I realised he was kissing me back. Then I heard someone walk into the room and freeze 
"Shit." I exclaimed loudly, as I turned to look at a startled sophie. Who then promptly turned and ran out of the room. Looking at Andrew who, I could tell from his eyes, was quite scared of people finding out about us. So I grabbed him and took of running after her. 

Why can't we tell people about us, I ask myself, because Andrew doesn't want people to know and I don't blame him. We run into the hall and sophie is sat with all my friends. I squeeze Andrews hand to calm him down and continue to walk over to her.
"Hey here come the love birds" I hear George call out. I squeeze Andrews hand again and then give George a death stare. Realising his mistake he apologises quickly.
"Sorry for walking in on you to." Sophie says quickly "is Jack okay?"
"I think he has gone into shock."
"What, because of your kiss?"
"No, because you took it upon yourself to inform everyone of our relationship."
"It's okay." Jack finally speaks "nothing we can do about it now."phew he has started talking again. 
"Why didn't you want us to know?" George asked, I saw his point we shouldn't have hid it from them. Thankfully jack answered for us.
"We thought you would look at us differently." 
" yeah your both Gaylord's why don't you fuck off." I didn't even know who said it, i just saw george punch Albert in the face. Who then fell off his chair and held his hand up trying to stop his nose bleed. 
"If anyone has a problem with your relationship they have to come through us first." George said, the others all nodded. 
"Phew." I let out a single breath before jack was kissing me, in feont of everyone. Then he pulled away. Lookimg around i just saw that no-one cared that we had kissed. I couldn't ask for better friends. 
We knew out friends accepted us but. We had no idea about our parents, I was worried about what my mum would say, she has always been quite Christian in her beliefs. I wasn't worried about my dad he had always accepted whatever I was. It took days for  me to pluck up the courage to tell my parents about my sexuality and Andrew. When I had finally plucked up all my Courage, I went to tell them but as I entered my lounge where they were sitting i just froze. I hope Andrew is having more luck. 
There he is Is oh I have missed him.
"Andrew" I call out to him. And then start running, but as I grew nearer I could see the cut that ran down the side of his face. I could see the tears in his eyes.
"What happened?"
"My parents don't want a gay son." I just stared at him, and some thing snapped inside me. His parents were just outside the school gates so I turned and ran straight past all of the children coming through the gates and stpped dead in front of their car. Then walking round the car I stopped byt the window, which then slowly rolled down.
"Hello, can i help you.?" His mum asked confused.
"Probably not" i replied "i'm Andrews boyfriend." I look at the shocked faces in the car. She tries to start the engine but i pull the keys out off the ignition. One of the teachers walks over to the car.
"Is there a problem." She asked 
"Go look at the cut on Andrew's face." The teacher looked absoloutly horrified 
"Did you inflict that injury on your son." 
The look of shame that crossed Andrews mothers face.
  So Andrew was taken away from his mother and was adopted by a lesbian couple that lived in the same street as me. We are both 28 now we got married when we were 25 and we are hoping to adopt a child together, But who knows what the future holds!


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