The empty soulless

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic
"The empty soulless" is about people who feel numb, empty, people like me, who feel like nothing matters anymore. It is about surviving with this emptiness, how to survive alone, living a misunderstood life. It also had a part on people who think that being numb is better than being miserable, what they don't realise is that being numb is being miserable.

Submitted: April 22, 2015

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Submitted: April 22, 2015

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Today's topic is being numb, empty, feeling that nothing matters any more and that you just don't care.

 

Yesterday I was thinking about the people I miss from my past, about my family and school problems and I realised something: I honestly don't care anymore, I don't care about any of it. I thought about where I am heading, where I will be in five years if I don't make a change in my life, I could end up penniless without a job on the streets and I thought long and hard about it and I just didn't feel anything at these ideas. I thought about a miserable life on the streets and it didn't affect me in the slightest.

 

Most people would think that not feeling anything is better than feeling miserable but I am not so sure, it is good at first because you don't feel the stress you had or the sadness but you don't feel the happiness either, you don't feel the hope. All you feel is empty, inhuman. You feel like nothing matters any more, anything could happen and it wouldn't matter.

 

When you don't feel any emotions you start to think that you don't have a soul. Like you are a monster that is capable of anything except feeling anything. No sadness yes but also no happiness. You just walk around day after day waiting for something to happen, anything as long as it makes you feel something. At this point I am just pretending, pretending to my friends and family that everything is okay but inside nothing is okay because I realise that inside I am nothing like the people around me, inside I am nothing, they are so much, they have emotions and a soul whereas I don't, no emotions and no soul. I am different, I one of the people that others would call “weird”, I am one of the people that no one wants to approach and that no one cares for.

 

For those who would say that not feeling anything is better than feeling miserable, that's not true, feeling nothing is miserable in itself. Feeling nothing is feeling dead inside, feeling empty, dark... No one who hasn't been through it can understand and we all know it, we know that we are misunderstood and that we are alone, that is part of what makes being numb so terrible, it makes us feel alone. Loneliness is one of the worst feelings in the world for many people.

 

My advice to anyone who is feeling numb, empty is to wait it out because it has worked for me once before and I am hopping that it will again. Just wait, it might take a wile but things will get better, if you hit rock bottom, you can only go up, only get better. The point is to never give up. Things can only get better so why give up now? If you give up, you will never know how your life would have turned out, how it will have improved.

 

Stay strong, keep on surviving, see you, I love you!

Never give up, things can only get better.

XXX

Teen nobody.

 


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