Take a Piece of My Brother

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: True Confessions  |  House: Booksie Classic
The circle of life so to speak. Loss for some may lead to others joy. Appreciation for the bigger picture.

Submitted: August 01, 2019

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There are times and experiences you endure throughout your life that there are no right words to explain nor express even a fraction of your reality. Sometimes you don't know what is right, nor how to cope, nor what on Earth you could possibly say to make any sense of what you personally, or anyone else are going through. No one and nothing is ever perfect. 
 
Sometimes though, we as individuals experience something so traumatic that there is literally nothing we can do or say to make anything better. This is one of those times for me, and my family. Anyone here who knows me, knows I'm a bit of a drinker. A partier. A happy go lucky and easy going woman who is accepting, understanding, and easy to get along with. 
Anyone here who really knows me; knows my struggles, my strengths, my perserverance, and my weaknesses. Those of you whom I'm truly close with know about my personal challenges, the people whom I hold close, and what I'm dealing with on the day to day.
 
 You know that I'm happily engaged, and am in the process of moving in with my beloved; blending our families and children together into one unit of love and understanding. You know that he has been struggling with demons he is trying to overcome. You know that recently, I have lost a brother to those same demons.
 
The last couple of weeks have been devastating. On the same day, my brother and my fiance gave into their demons. One lost his life, the other learned a lesson. Ive learned again that life isn't fair. It can hit you square in the face and in a place way far away from anywhere you've ever even considered to be imaginable.
 
This past week, I've watched a father and mother lose their son. Brothers and sisters losing a sibling. A wife lose her husband, and two children I love dearly lose the only father they've ever known. I've personally been an emotional mess. Though I've known way too many people to leave this world before their due time, none of them have hit so closely as this. All I can think of are the faces and lives of my sister in law, niece, and nephew, as well as my step dad, and his other siblings, especially, Jayce. They will never again be the same. This one event will forever have an impact on their lives as it has been on mine, but in such a larger extent that I can't even come to terms with it. All of our hearts are broken. Our thoughts and expectations of life now challenged. Nothing will ever nor ever can be the same. 
 
This post serves nothing other than a peek into what my life, or anyone else's may or may not look like. All I ask is that all of you struggling with any kind of addiction, sorrow, or self damaging thoughts think about those who's lives will be affected by whatever decisions you make. Get help if you need it. Get counseling. Take whatever medicine needed if it can help you. Talk. Talk to anyone and everyone that will listen. Don't ever assume that you're life or struggles don't matter. They do. Reach out. Let others be there for you, and be there for them. Believe others when they tell you the same. Wear your seatbelt. Don't drink or take mind altering drugs and drive. Don't leave when you're mad. Tell those who are important to you that you love them. That you are there for them. Swallow your pride. At the end of the day all that matters is the love you've shown, and the love you have received; knowingly or not. I wish I had some profound closing point. Something that could resonate with everyone.
 
Unfortunately, we are all victims of our own personal circumstances. This happens to be mine and my family's. But if even one of you our there reaches out when needed, I now know that it can impact the lives of several. 
 
Prayers to the receivers of my brothers organs and their families. My hope is that you all truly understand how much of a blessing the gift of life truly is. Not just to the recipient, but to everyone in their lives as well. I only pray that all of you live happy and prosperous lives once received, with bountiful love and appreciation. I think a small part of us all died with Alex the other day. May you and yours turn those sorrows into joy, may this negative impact on so many turn into a blessing, and gift unto others. That is how the world will continue, and humanity itself. 
 
My only comfort, is knowing that pieces and parts of my brother still exist. They are still alive. They are waiting to help other people and families giving them salvation. So please, take a piece of my brother. God Bless.


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