I Know I Love You But, I Think I Hate You

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This is kind of a poem, kind of a rant of my thoughts, kind of a letter to my boyfriend. I thought i was going to break up with him because people i knew tried to convince me that there were so many things wrong with him that it was horrable and i shouldn't be with him. ( I did break up with him but that night i called him and we got back together) just remember, Follow Your Heart!

Submitted: July 02, 2010

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Dear Love,
I needed someone
Someone to pull me out of the dark
And you fit the job perfectly
I needed someone to hang onto
Love and care for me
And you fit the job perfectly
You drug me out of the ocean I was drowning myself in
I had no resistance to you or desire to jump back in
But as time passed
I watched the ocean from the shore
And thought how foolish I was to jump in
When the depression fades and the strong girl
Come out to play
She doesn’t need sympathy
She doesn’t need your tears
And she tires of your negativity towards living
She pushes away from you but you hold on with all your might
Looking up at her with tear fill eyes
You sob "Why"
She can't give you an answer because those words
seem too cold toforceinto anyones ears
So she prys you off and you shrivel up into a little ball
You are weeping on the floor
feeling so confused
and hurt
With your puppy dog eyes
make her feel guilt
But she’s not falling for it this time
She is walking away...
I don’t need you
And I’m going to show you
I’m alright
I don’t need you to pull me out of the ocean
I don’t need your love
As I did before
You can say I used you
That I played with your heart
But it wasn’t my intention
I honestly love you
I’m just tired of the heavy emotions you show me
I gave you life
I gave you love
I hurt you
I broke your heart
And I do apologize for it but
I wouldn’t give you sympathy forever
And I wouldn’t apologize forever
You need to move on because
I have
And I don’t want you tonight
Don’t think that I don’t care about you
I do
And that is why we must stop
We can not continue
No more sympathy
No more hurt
No more guilt
No more wasting my time
We have to stop
All you did was love me you say
But you did so much more
You saved me from the bright light I was going towards
You made my smiles real
You loved me for the person I truly am
Thank you for all you’ve done for me
I appreciate your understanding, loving, and caring nature
I know this will hurt
I know the pain will remain for a long while in your tender heart
I hope the scars on your heart will heal over well
And I hope this will not turn to physical scars
Remember the good times we’ve had
Like the park
And your couches
And even the lunches
I loved every minute of it
But I’m still young and so are you
I have so much ahead of me
New places to explore
New things to learn
New people to meet
And I want to go do that
We were wrong
Caught up in a fairy tale
When we said that we would marry
Everything seemed to change and come undone in my eyes
I don’t know who you’ll be later in life
And I hope to find out someday
That you’ve turned out successful and happy
I wish you the best in everything you do
I don’t want any harm to be put upon you
But this is one pain that we both have to deal with
I don’t want to completely cut you out of my life
I don’t want to erase all the memories of us
Because I cherish them
And always will
I love you
I’m sorry for the pain I’ve caused
Now I have to walk along the sand watching the waves crash
And hope you wouldn’t jump in the ocean
Because I can’t dive in after you
I saved you from drowning once
This time I’ll let someone else
Be your savior
We need to take different paths on the shore.
You go left
I go right
Walking in the sand day and night
I can’t look back
Because if I do I know I will want to love you again
I can’t love you
It's not right
So now i'll go
Goodbye Love
But, if you ever get lonely and want a friend
i promise i'll answer your call...


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