I Hate You Mel

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic
Everyday is a path that can branch off and stop in the wrong places....Being 16 and branded crazy, Melony Karmone, tries to face the fact she isnt how she wants to be and finaly gives in to Mel.

Submitted: June 28, 2011

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 'One mississippi, two mississippi, three mississippi, four mississippi.... you shouldn't be living......five mississippi, six mississippi, seven mississippi.....you only hurt everyone around you....eight mississippi, nine mississippi, ten mississippi.....kill yourself before you can hurt more. SHUT UP MEL! I wont shut up because i am you. I am your imperfection.....i am your hatred.'

I rock back and forth trying to get rid of Mel. I am not Mel i am Melony....Mel is bad....Mel will hurt me....'I am stronger than you Melony and you know it.' I close my eyes and keep rocking and softly sing, \"Ev'ry day is so wonderful, suddenly it hard to breath. Now and then i get insecure from all the pain, feel so ashamed. I am beautiful no matter what they say....\" Shut up you know i will always be here and you are never going to be beautiful. You are nothing to these people.\" Tears keep streaming down my face but i continue to sing in a shaky voice, \"Words can't bring me down. I am beautiful in every single way. Yea, words can't bring me down. oh no. So don't you bring me down today.\" Finnaly i can't feel Mel anymore and i start to calm down.

A knock sounds on the door and a nurse calls, \"Melony your mom is here to see you. Shes coming in!\" I just stay curled up in my corner not trusting myself to speek. I look down at my wrists where ugly scars show through. 'Mom is here to see me.....Its been 3 years....I thought she didn't want me as a daughter because Mel is always in my head making me do things that are wrong. Another knock sounds at the door. A woman will long brown hair and sparkling blue eyes walks into the room. She must be my mom. 'Haha mom? Really more like abandoner. She left us Melony....you can't trust her. She'll just call you crazy again and have you locked back up. But me....I will always be here with you. Your stuck with me till death baby. Never. Mom is here and she'll understand. You will go away. The docters say the new meds will kill you. Not before i kill you baby.'

\"Is this Melony or Mel?\" My mom's voice asks a bit scared. She looks at everything but me. I stand up and walk to her. I touch her cheek and she jumps away from me and swats at my hand. \"No. Don't touch me....\" Her voice trails off and we fall into silence. 'What did i tell ya baby? She will never love you. I will always be here for ya. But shes my mom....shes suppose to love me even if i'm crazy....Sorry to break this to ya but if she loved you she wouldnt flinch away from ya.'

\"It's Melony mommy,\" I whisper. \"Why did you come here?\" I look at her pleading with my mismatched eyes. She shudders. She never liked my eyes. One is blue and one is brown. my hair was also wierd. Its white as snow. \"Mommy....\" I trail off.

\"Melony i came to tell you me and you father are leaving the country and you behind. You too much to take care of. You are crazy and need special help. I don't ever see you getting out of a hospital. I just came to say goodbye to the only child i've ever had and to tell you that we are not paying for anymore medical bills. You are going to be released and you have to find a way on your own. your 16 almost 17 you can do it.\" Tears fill my eyes as she finnishes and then spins sharply on her heel and leaves.

\"Mom!\" I shout out after her. She stops and turns around. \"You're suppose to love me! You're suppose to be there for me! You're suppose to be my mom.\" I whisper the last part. She just looks at me and leaves. Exiting the door and letting this be the first and last time i will ever see my mom. 'See Melony. You, we, are nobody to them. We only have each other. I will always be here for you but we don't belong in this world....Let me take over and end our suffering. Yes. Okay. Just end the pain.'

For the first time ever in 3 years i exit the doors that have kept me prisoner and enter the world. Mel is my last living thing. My last compainion and she will make everything better for us. 'Ok Mel. Do what you have to do to end the pain. Sure thing baby.' I feel nothing anymore and i look on to what is happening not having any feeling towards it. I watch as Mel goes into a store with the little cash i have left and buys a knife. She then walks out of the store, pockets the knife and walks to the beach. 'What do you think about being burried in the sand Melony, baby? I don't know. How about we imerse ourselves in the water. That is more like it baby. Lets do it.'  As night falls and people dissapear I can see Mel pulling out the knife. 'Baby we are going to be happy now. Forever and alway.' She then takes the knife and slits our throat. I can't feel it but i know Mel can cause she tries to scream but only a gurgle comes out and then blood seeps from our mouth onto the cold sand. Soon though the tide will come and wash us away to be at reast in the sea. Its a pleasent thought, my last thought until i hear Mel whisper one last thing in our head. 'Forever and always baby.'  Then it was just the sea of black and no feeling.

 


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