FairyTales Behind WebPages

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
Why do we put pictures and a little bio on a webpage for other people, doing the exact same thing, expecting to fall in love like a fairytale?

Submitted: April 06, 2015

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I should've known meeting a guy on a dating site wouldn't blossom into anything great; but a girl can hope...right? I'm just sick of the fooling around, cheating and being used. I'm sick of being someone's back up, last resort, booty call, second best, girl they go to when they can't get anything...I'm just sick of nothing real, meaningful and stable. I need stability in my life for once. Going from school to school, town to town, and home to home starts to drive you crazy. I thought once I got to college, all the negativity in my life would start to settle, not entirely disappear...just slow down a little but, but this is reality and I'm obviously in over my head like always. My anxiety is worse than ever before, but my depression isn't so bad. I'm just letting things get to me when I shouldn't. I guess I just fall to easy when a nice guy comes around, open up too soon...just to fall down on my ass; while they just stand back, watch and laugh. It's not like they can't tell I might actually care about them more than the average friend does; right? I don't know. I'm really bad at this crush thing. I'm too  blinded by 'the feels' to actually be able to read the guy on whether or not anything is there. And some guys are just so freaking good at stringing you along with their flirty glances and smiles, sweet talk, cute little pet names, goofy personalities...should I keep going? And the worst part is when they get what they want, they disappear and act like you're not even there, like you don't even exist or like there was nothing ever there. Obviously I understand and know for a fact that all guys are not like that, but I just guess I'm really bad at finding the good genuine guys that want the stability and commitment I want. I don't think I'm asking for much nor do I think I'm that bad of a person, I just have really bad luck at dating and finding men. I try to stay to myself, not fall for guys and just enjoy the single life. And I do, but than some big green eyed, dark haired, tall, sparkly white smiling guy walks into my life and everything flies out the window and I'm jumping off the cliff once again. Naked, completely exposed and free falling straight into disappointment and heart ache. And it's just over and over again, like those nightmares you get where you are free falling and you just keep falling, never hitting the ground. Than right before you slam against what ever is at the bottom waiting for you, you awaken to reality...the reality that love is just not like fairytales and movies, and that prince charming's and happily ever after's are just lies we grew up dreaming of.


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