Confessions Of A Paranoid Girl

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic
Don't know what to do or how to feel.

Submitted: November 16, 2011

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Submitted: November 16, 2011



I'm afraid to surrender to my stubbornness and admit that I could fall in love with you, but I wouldn't want to.
For so long I've been told to act like a warrior, look like a queen, and stay silent like a Ghost.
But I don't want to.
I want to fall into you.
Stand by you side by side with my arms wide open and my back turned knowing that you won't stab it.
You speak with your subconscious making it aware that you are the same as I but I am no good for you.

What if I'm right, what if there could be love, how could I take that?
For I have never loved a man like you and I have never found one as pure as diamonds.

We're drawn to each other for reasons unknown that twists us both.
Is it because we are the only ones that know that underneath that hard exterior are scars from the previous battle of our heart?

Why do I feel this way?
Why do you bring this out in me?
You hold this magic wand, waving and gathering my truth that I refuse to share with anyone but you prove me wrong and give me hope that I thought would never be possible.

Are you the man meant for me or simply just a figure of what I want?
This feeling I've felt before, this pattern I've been through before but will it lead to the same fate?
Or would it simply lead to the happiness I once deserted?

We only speak whispers yet I hear you so clear.
You do not invade my life, but in my heart you do.
For you have poisoned me into something forbidden, something I can not and shall not continue to feel.

I'm not meant for this, for you, to view you in this way, but this poison you have injected within me has left me in a dark blurry haze, throwing the equilibrium to my heart off and into the paths of what I know to never be.

Please do not forsake me, I promise to never tell you how I think I'm falling in love with you, for this love shall explode inside of me and die as I know our relations shall soon to come.

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