[I wonder how it would be if you were to love me. I wonder how you would be if you were to love me. I wonder how I'd be if you were to love me. I wonder how you'd feel if you
were to love me.]
When I see you two together,
This is what happens to me:
My heart becomes pierced,
Which sends an earth shattering,
Shake throughout my body.
I start to suffocate,
As I feel as if I were having a heart attack.
Once the agony is gone,
A surprising mourn comes within my soul.
Through mourning comes grief,
Braided with jealousy and hatred.
An unbearable smell of defeat,
Makes me want to vomit,
My associates in my mind become frantic.
My body is thrown into confusion,
Sending tornadoes into my insides.
And as I groan in pain,
My gut begins to twist and turn upside down,
Tightens but pulls,
Something I've never endured before,
Something I refuse to comprehend.
My acid of despise,
Only heightens the pain of memories,
That could have been.
[Loving you is exhausting. You not loving me is breath taking. But forgetting what we ever had is venomous. So I cry and ache over someone who doesn't feel a thing.]
Is all for you.
I thought I didn't love you,
But as you can see,
I am wrong.
[I am what you made me to be, what you wanted me to be. Now you don't want me...]
I. will. be. de.com.posed. loving. you. I know it.
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