I don’t want to call this feeling a name, so I’ll just call it “Amazing” and give it a definition.
It occurs when you’ve fallen so hard for someone, that you’d kill to be with them; fallen so hard that you’d kill yourself for them if they just asked you to. And you just know that this one feeling is quite special, especially since you’ve never felt this way, no one ever has made you feel this way before, and you’re quite sure no one else ever will.
‘Cause things like this can’t be forgotten. Maybe feelings fade away but memories are always there to remind you what it was, and what it will never be again.
Right now, I might be over-dramatizing. But how can you tell your heart what to do? And more importantly, how and what to feel.
And right now, you’re with her. I hate her, I hate the fact that she gets to hold you, the way that I’ll never be able to. I hate her just as much as I’d hate if she ever hurt you. Frankly, I wish it could be me instead. She’s lucky; lucky to have you; lucky to see you every day. And frankly, karma is not a bitch - distance is. I’d walk to you if I had no other way, but you see, I can’t swim quite well.
‘Cause you loved me once, and maybe still do.
But it’s quite impossible for me to reach you. Quite impossible for me to give up and let go… or maybe I just don’t want to.
I’d kill to be her, and in the same time, if I actually could, I wouldn’t. And if I had three wishes, I wouldn’t wish for your love ‘cause I’d want you to love me on your own.
You once did, maybe still do, but distance is a bitch.
Tonight, I’ll lay in my bed hoping that you’re okay, hoping you’re happy with her. I’ll drown my cravings for her death in the ocean of my tears and that strange, yet amazing feeling, called love.
I just want you to know that I’d never hurt you, I’d sacrifice my all to just see you truly happy. And I still love you more than anyone has ever loved something.
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