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My farewell :)

Submitted: August 21, 2014

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It's been 87 days 17 hours and 13 minutes since I last cut.

and less since I last saw you.

and in both moments I was completely overwhelmed

my heart stopped

and I realised the only thing that will wilfully destroy me

can save me

for my final performance I wrote about how much I loved you

how much I love you

and how much I hope you think about me

and then I confided in you

and you dropped me so fast

flat on my face which brings the 87 to 60

and less since I last saw you

i save every picture you put up because your face is the only beauty I ever needed

but I still can't have it

and you come back every now and again to remind me

i am worthless

i am vile

i am not her

i am barely me anymore

i loved you so much I left no love for myself

i love you so much I have no love for myself

but you hurt me and then tell me to thank you

because if it weren't for you I'd still be the same piece of shit who couldn't smile.

but because of you I am a piece if shit

who cannot smile

i promised I would never even think about suicide again

but now 60 has turned into none

and it'll be never, 

when I next see you.

my love.

 

 


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