I'm not the girl that I pretend to be

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

Some things-or people- can change you...

I was yours to adore

you were mine to regret

I thought I loved you once

now I try to forget

forget the time we were

forget the time you took

because you stole my heart 

without a second look

a year ago you stole it

and locked it up so tight

although I didn't see it

you were stealing all my light

and through all this time 

I've got it back again

I wont let anyone steal it

not even my best friend

loving you---

was my biggest mistake

but it taught me so much;

my heart was too easy to take

so I put up my defenses

-built a wall around my mind-

blocking out the world

saving my precious time

I rebuilt my confidence

I built myself back up

I even repaired my heart

after it was shattered, torn, and cut

it's like I an reborn

although I never died

the pain will always come back

but I'll never admit I cried

yes in a way you helped me

but you also destroyed my heart

it's filled with paranoia and mistrust

it's one piece from falling apart

in many ways you broke me

physically and inside

hiding the pain is easy

it's the scars that are hard to hide

not many people know

the things you did to me 

cause I'm not the person

that I pretend to be...


Submitted: September 02, 2015

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Jeff Bezaire

It's difficult to trust people after something like this happens to you, but you can't go through the rest of life emotionally detached and locked away from the world. Learning not to trust people so freely and quickly is an important lesson to learn, but there will always be people you can trust, just like there will always be people you cannot trust. You have to take the chance, but it's a chance worth taking. Otherwise, you're only living half a life. I hope you can trust people again.

Wed, September 2nd, 2015 2:52am

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Slowly, I will begin to trust. I know this is only a temporary thing, but it has taught me to be careful with who I trust. Although these were the worst years of my life, I am trying to gain from this traumatizing experience. I appreciate your concern! Thank you so much for continuing to read my work. You have no idea how much it means to me.

Tue, September 1st, 2015 8:33pm

Carlos29

Another amazing poem. This hit me hard, bringing back an old relationship that toke its toll on me. Its not easy moving forward, rebuilding onself, or trust, but we do it. Iv been doing it alone all this time. I love it when a poem reaches me so deep its refreshing. Keep me posted on your work i love it. Definitely a like.

Sat, September 26th, 2015 12:22pm

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