Being an Outsider In My World

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Editorial and Opinion  |  House: Booksie Classic

This is nothing but the truth. Being an outsider is a hard thing, but I survived it.


 

Being an Outsider

 

Grade school, Middle school, they’re all the same. Same rejections. The same cliques. Oh, and the stupid people that feed of other’s sadness. “Rejection is not a failure, but yet another step up the staircase of success.” I was an outsider for a while there. I was never invited to parties, never asked to the dance, and never asked to do anything cool with people, and I even got into a fight. It was like this all through grade school, same slurs and fights. I intend to make my last year of middle school good. I won’t let ANYTHING get in my way, so don’t mess with me.

When I was in first grade, Most people didn’t notice me. None of the people in my class now remember me, even though I waved and smiled at them all the time when I walked past them in the hallways. Second grade was a new school. Absolutely no one said a word to me. I watched as friends greeted friends, and enemies punched enemies, all the way up to fourth grade. I’ve always been fairly mature for my age, so I didn’t let it get to me, but you have no idea how fast being a loner can turn into being a target. People cussed at me, threw trash at me, and worst of all, they made fun of my family. One day it just got to me. The world had been bearing down on me for so long. I punched a kid on the chin and spit on him after he said something lewd to me. I got a suspension which led me to believe that other kids could wail on me for years without getting in trouble, but when the good kid throws a punch, he’s automatically in trouble.  I ended up getting expelled a week before grade school graduation, which really upset my parents.

I know now that I don’t want my last year of middle school to resemble what my other years of school have been like. If there are people out there that don’t like me, please, refrain from talking to me. Don’t interact with me. I sure don’t want you coming up to me and saying, “Hey, you are such a loser,” or, “you sure are stupid.” Especially because I have better things to do than listen to your comments anyway. I don’t let people mess with me or my head anymore, so if you were planning on trying, I’d want to reconsider if I was you. 

So yeah, being an outsider is tough, but not wanting to change that is a whole lot worse. I’ve been an outsider, yeah, but that won’t stop me from being an insider. Oh, and one last thing, if you were wondering who it was that quoted “ ‘Rejection is not a failure, but yet another step up the staircase of success.',” it was me. 



Submitted: April 13, 2012

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