Innocent Eyes

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My try at a fathers point of view- losing his daughter as she grows up and loses her innocence and she doesn't want anything to do with him.

Submitted: July 30, 2014

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You are innocent eyes are now so cold…

Black and on fire,

almost ash- like coals.

They send a shiver down my spine and it makes me wish you weren’t so old.

All I use to see-

All I use to love-

It's all erased.

It’s all so rough.

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In your eyes I see a bunch of scratches, and a bunch of lies.

I see a cloud of disgust-

A cloud of hurt-

Waves of pain-

and tears that stain worse than blood.

I see a person wanting to let go-

Someone who doesn’t want to try-

To patch up their wounds –

 if they would maybe they could turn out alright…

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In that face I see a broken smile,

Sagging lines,

And an inch of hope,

 and for a second I think you might be back for a while.

Although I also see an ocean of black-

And in the middle a little girl waiting to be saved.

Maybe I could give her some slack-

But maybe it’s way too late…

Because…

You can’t get back innocence-

In a sense everything is ruined.

You are taken under-

Maybe under the influence.

They can’t say hold on to innocence-

That’s a lie…and it doesn’t make any sense.

It’s impossible –

But sometimes I have to believe in the impossible

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Your voice is like broken glass shoved in my ears

I forgot to ask-

Why do you go the wrong way-

Why can’t you still be daddy’s little girl?

Your presence makes me nauseous

I can't spend another second with this imposter-

You’re not my daughter!

Not the same person-

You turned into some kind of monster.

Your eyes clogged up, they got so contaminated that it spread to your heart-

Maybe your heart should have been laminated,

You should have protected it!

I Always  told you that you would always be my little girl.

And now I'm just now realizing you hated it-

and that your now lost along with the world.

Why did you have to grow up?

How did this happen so quick?

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When I get older

I’ll call you and lie-

I’ll say I’m sick.

Just so you will visit.

You’ll knock on my door and give me that same fake smile-

And I sit there like an idiot wishing you were still a child.

And When I’m in my deathbed-

And you don’t want to see me-

I’ll just think about the family

And how happy we once were-

I’ll expect all of my children to visit me-

But most of all I’ll expect you to be first.

But Gosh…You would never come and that's what hurts the worst.

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When I finally take my last breath-

The only thing I’m going to choose to see

Is that little girl free of lies-

And those ever so beautiful innocent eyes, staring back at me.

 


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