Most of my close friends know that lately I have undergone a large amount of self transformation and soul searching. My ideals and view-points have changed over the past few
months. I was a victim of my surroundings and held fast to what I was taught as a child. I abandoned my reservations and discarded my biases when I began to educate myself in literature, religion
and the power of the spoken word. My writing is not always a reflection of who I am. Sometimes I write to entertain just as sometimes I write to relieve my mind of the multitude of knowledge that
sometimes keeps me up at night. However, this particular piece is not to offend anyone, it is my revelation...My Reveal-Action. I see the world, people, and life from a different point of view now.
My new eyes have given me clarity. My heart has embraced these thoughts even though my lifestyle has yet to adjust. "AVARAH KADABRA"-Vanessa T. Williams
06 October 2010
I pray to Jesus for help. I have always prayed to Jesus for help. When I find myself alone, I often talk to him out a loud. I have seen the manifestations of my prayers and I firmly believe in the
concept of faith. I believe that hope is the catalyst for breakthroughs. I long ago abandoned the desire for fellowship and I know that this is in direct contrast with what the word of God tells me
to do. The fact of the matter is; I hate church settings. I was raised in a church called "Christ the Deliver Assembly". It was located on Addison Street in Baton Rouge for the majority
of its existence. I attended this church from the age of about 7 until I was 18 years old. My family lived at church. We were there about four days a week. The church became our extended family,
then the lines between the church and home-life began to blur. My mother whom had recently married my step father was a new Christian. She had had a life filled with disappointments and let downs.
Naturally her soul desired restoration. She formed friendships and developed a love for the women and the families of this church. My parents gave, even though we didn’t have much. The church was a
social structure with the Apostle as the King. The singers and the band were his royal court. My life changed; suddenly it completely evolved around this church. Whenever important decisions
were being made in my household, my parents sought the advice of this church. Whenever I’d done something wrong, the entire church knew. This apparently was the trend of this church. The
members had been friends for years prior to its development. I do not doubt that the Message being delivered was the word of God. I always felt as if I was an outsider; my parents didn't
place me on the pedestal that the other girls were atop of. My mother went through a lot of turmoil in those years. There was always so much mess and confusion at every turn. During some of
the over-night slumber parties I would attend at the other church members’ homes; I got a front row seat to everybody's personal business. In hindsight I realize that because I was there
sometimes, they didn’t talk about my family. I can recall some of the things that I saw. Back then I would not have dared said a thing. Some of the single women of the church (this
church had a lot of single women) were all after this one man. He was a well to do guy and was very gentlemanly. He sat on our board of elders also. He was very good friends with the mother of one
of my friends. Often we would be at her house and this elder would come and pray with her. They would be locked in her room for hours at a time. When he would emerge
his clothes would often be out of place, Sometimes, his shirt would be undone. Then on Sunday, they both were full of Holy Ghost fire. That is one instance, just example that I will use. My family
eventually left this church I was 23 at the time.
I witnessed many things that I knew was not in line with what the word of God. It became a problem when the ones who were preaching it, was doing it. This experience has permanently scarred me. I
developed distrust and resentment towards churches in general. A church should be the pillar of the community and help the surrounding areas by providing alms and direction. The minister should be
accessible to his flock. He should know his sheep by their name. “I am the good shepherd; and I know my sheep, and am known by my own. As the father knows me, even so I know the Father; and I lay
down my life for the sheep. And other sheep I have which are not of this fold; them I must also bring, and they will hear my voice and there will be one flock and one shepherd” (Jesus, John
10:14-17, NKJV). Tell me, those of you who attend large churches, can you pick up the phone and call your pastor at anytime? How accessible is the man of God to you when you need him? How can
a pastor walk around in a two hundred dollar suit and one of his members who trusts and tithes to the building has their lights off? When one of his members loses their home? Answer me this? If you
and your family has to go home after next Sunday service and eat hot dogs. How would you feel the following Sunday when the pastor get on the pulpit and discuss how they had a good time at
sister and brother such and such house eating barbecue last Sunday. Each member of the church should be a MEMBER; they are a part of the whole. If my feet hurt, my body can't get from
point A to point B by walking. If the members of the church is held in regard as the bible states they should, they why are they being over looked in times of turmoil and the church continues to
move forward? Prayer alone cannot change a situation. Having two or more to believe a thing and pray to God for a thing is the proper way to exercise our faith. However, faith without works is
dead. A seed has to be planted; what seeds are your church planting for you. You are sowing, into your churches, you sowing and believing God to move. But a broken vessel cannot carry water. What
kind of vessel is the church you attend? I have to ask. When was the last you were involved in conflict in your church? When was the last time you were witness to conflict in your church? When was
the last time your pastor or congregation for help? Did they actually provide the help you requested? When was the last time, your church served the community as far as aiding families in need? I
am not trying to bash the church; I want to remind my readers once again that fellowship is in accordance with the word of God and it is necessary for spiritual grow. However, would you eat out of
dirty hands? Then why specify yourself as Christian or Christ-like when you are only adhering to those aspects of the bible that suit you? Having more than what you need is a precursor to greed. Is
it necessary to adorn churches with eloquence, cable television, surround sound, and stainless steel? Will more souls be saved if the church is pretty? Christians wake up! “Enter by the narrow
gate; for wide is the gate that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it”
(Jesus, Matthew 7:13-14, NKJV). The power and significance of this verse is tantamount in expressing the value of humility and righteousness. So which gate are you walking towards? The absence
of struggle and pain does not signify that you are doing what is right. The devil was an angel of light. His illumination is in place to blind. He appears to be beautiful in order to deceive. Are
you being deceived? Is your spirit-man being properly fed? Are you believing and living by the word of God? God has not changed my friends, our faith has. He is the same God
that parted the Red Sea, the same God that cast out devils. Level of miracles we see had changed because, the faith of human beings have changed. The misdirection and distrust that humans have for
God, exists because we are being led astray.
The power of influence can super-cede all clarity. It is how religions and cults form. The ideals of a group of people or a person shared and expressed to the point that it either enslaves or
addicts others. Knowledge, is only appreciated when it is understood, other -wise it will be reverenced or rejected. To reject knowledge one simply walks away and chooses not to listen.
Reverencing, leads to worship and fearfulness. We often mistake fear for respect and we tend to cater to and serve the possessor of this knowledge. How do you think cults are formed? Now wait
reader! I am not calling your church a cult or your pastor a false prophet. I am simply trying to raise awareness on how Satan can potentially operate within a congregation. Whenever the true
message is misplaced and the glory goes to what you wear, what the pastor drives, and the new choir equipment then souls can be lost. Feelings get hurt, people abandon their church; they develop
mistrust and bitterness towards the church and sometimes God. Adhering to the Word and following it because it is the word builds stronger fellowships and stronger church families.
How much influence does the leader of your congregation have over your life? Is it in accordance with the Word? Where does your worship lie, in God or in your pastor? “Therefore whoever hears these
sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock; and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not
fall, for it was founded on the rock” (Jesus, Matthew 7:24-25, NKJV). The rock that this scripture is speaking is the word of God.
What is the Word?
The Bible, the Koran, the Torah, and other cornerstones of religion are man’s interpretation of doctrine. There is no doubt in my mind that the Holy Spirit intervened at the counsel to ensure God’s
word remained intact; however, the countless revisions of the bible from one version to the next has altered small but key principles of its contents. Just as many sects of Christianity have formed
based on the Bible, I am also inclined to believe the each religion draws it ideals from one source also; “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in
the beginning with God. All things were made through him and without him nothing was made that was made” (John 1:1-4, NKJV). Let’s take a look at this scripture and what it implying. “In the
beginning was the Word…” I am not a trained scholar in religion and neither are most preachers but I will try to interpret this as best I can. When I read this one phrase, I believe that it is
telling us that. “…there is a truth” The truth or “The Word” was there with God in the beginning. I believe that the Word was a physical manifestation of God’s glory. I believe that it was the
power of the spoken word that is being referred to. The scripture also says, “…the Word was God” At first one would be inclined to relate this passage to the Holy Trinity; when I first read it, I
swayed in that direction; however, the meaning is much deeper and just as literal as it sounds. Verse 2 says, “He was in the beginning with God. We know that the Word was not an angel; we know that
it was not Jesus, and we know that the word was not of lesser value. We do have reason to believe that the Word was equal to God. Not greater than God and not a god; but we know that God had to
make use of the Word to bring forth creation. Verse 3 reads, “All things were made through him and without him nothing was
made that was made.” Let me elaborate; God made use of his word, the spoken word. The spoken word was powerful enough to manifest itself. This is because it came forth from God. The manifestation
of the word and its presence in the beginning with God made all things possible. The Word has not changed. The Word is still as powerful as it was then.
So reader, you may ask, “Well, what is different?” I will tell you…we are. Centuries of misguidance by false prophets and rogue holy men have removed the fear of God from the masses. Man has placed
trust in man for salvation. Man has abandoned true faith and steadfastness; we have begun to rely on money gifts and prayer cloths. Let me ask; “What is the difference between a statue of Mary and
a Prayer Cloth?” Do you have an answer? There is nothing different between them. Just as there is nothing different between a vial of holy water, holy oil, a cross, or any other object
someone has prayed over in the name of God. You do not know where their faith is when they are praying over these objects. Yet we make donations in hopes of receiving one of them. We believe these
objects will bring forth change in our lives. We think that if we sprinkle our husbands and children with it, or secretly lay it underneath the pillow of a heathen relative they will be
transformed. Nothing is further from the truth my friends. Now make no mistake. We are supposed to tithe, we are supposed to give first fruit offerings; however, it does not mean that we should
give to a physical building or person. You give to the kingdom of God. You give out of your need. Your heart is judged when you tithe, not the amount of your tithe.
Seriously, I have contemplated finishing this scripture for months. Everything in me told me not to, but I made the decision to go forth.
Do you understand reader why there are so many different forms of religions? You see at some point and time, someone decided that they liked some parts of the Bible, and didn’t like some others.
They took some parts and emphasized while down playing others. Millions of people have been swayed to believe an ideal that a man or a group of people thought necessary to create. It’s the way
Cults are formed. People want to believe in something. They want to know that their souls are saved. So when a miracle comes along with a little charisma with promises of salvation, man tends to
listen. Don’t listen to false hopes and promises. Read the Word. Believe it or not the Word of God provides comfort to the soul if you actually cast your cares upon God. The world wants us turn to
New Age concepts. They want us to ask the question, “Where do we come from” and “Are we alone” Well we are not alone! We were given the Holy Spirit as a comforter.
“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; not about the body, what you will put on. Life is more than food and the body is more than clothing. Consider the ravens,
for they neither sow nor reap, which neither storehouse nor barn; and God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds? And which of you worrying can add on cubit to his stature? If
you then are not able to do the least, why are you anxious for the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you, even Solomon in all his glory was not
arrayed like one of these. If then God so clothes grass, which today is in the field and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will He clothe you, O you of little faith (Luke 12: 22-28,
NKJV)” The power of this verse is incomprehensible. God is telling us to believe. This verse gives us the authority to take control of our lives by trusting God. Trust God people. Use prayer for
its intended purpose. Life is more than a lifestyle and it’s more than a party. Life is a vast vessel. Fill it up with knowledge. Fill up your lives with purpose; fill it up with the authority that
God has given each of us.
God has given us the spoken word. Be careful of what is escaping from your lips. There is power in words; there is power in the mind. Shape your thoughts by speaking proper things. I am not
in any way saying that we should not attend church, or that we should not tithe. I am saying,” Time is running out”. Lean not, to your own understanding, neither the understanding of any other man.
Turn your hearts and your homes back to Christ. Begin your fellowships at home first. Reclaim your lives and the lives of your families by embracing the word of God. Read it aloud, stand on it.
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