Why Ask For Everything When I Got The One Thing I Actually Value?

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Submitted: February 14, 2009

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Why Ask For Everything When I Got The One Thing I Actually Value?
 
I have this hobby where I just sit back and observe people, their behaviour, mentalities and some such. Almost sounds stalker-ish, but before I start I want two facts to be made very clear;
1) If you ask for a lot you get little so if you ask for little you in turn get a lot.
2) I am very simple.
 
Ok, so that being said I just wanted to point out an obvious fact that many people are disappointed in the way their lives are going. They’re journey isn’t going as planned, they want to live one way and instead get a heavily downgraded version and they say to themselves that life sucks.
 
Think about it, everyone wants a lot but the world only has so much to dish out. If you were born in a family of twelve, I wasn’t but its been known to happen quite frequently. The parents love the kids, and as kids we want everything, but there is twelve of us and we all want it all.
 
The parents can’t give it all to all of us, so they give a bit to each of us and its fair but we don’t see it that way. The way we see it we deserve more, yet we think the others deserve more too, or maybe you think you deserve it all.
 
I am not trying to say you’re selfish, I’m just saying that the world has a population of four billion or something so we can’t have everything. But we’re only human, and disappointment is a bummer and it puts us down and we love to complain.
 
We want everyone to like us, we want money and we want reputation. I know, different people want different things, but how can you be disappointed when you only ask for what you need.
 
I am far from perfect but I have the benefit of having a simple mind, I need very few things to keep my simple self motivated. When I say hi I like it when the person says hi or bye I like to get hi or bye back, when I wave its awesome to get waved at in return.
 
When I extend my hand its great for the person to receive it and give it a good firm shake or a unique shake depending on the person, and fyi, I never say this but, I love hugs. I don’t care if a lot of people don’t like me, there is only one person that would truly disturb me if she didn’t like me, and for the moment she does.
 
I mean I got other friends, and if they hated me I would feel emptiness and would be sad. But of all my closest friends one is just the closest to me, and this does not degrade my friendships with any of the others because they are all invaluable to me.
 
But about that one, I don’t mean romantic like, just the respect I feel hidden behind the sarcasm and the fact she can tolerate my antics. The way she can manage to make any day better just by being there, or how she can make the best day sadder by feeling sad herself.
 
She is not annoying, she doesn’t get on my nerves and she always looks good. She says she has a temper but I really don’t see that, I see justified responses to unprovoked insults and I wish I could actually be there for her when she needed be but I’m always afraid I’ll tip the balance.
 
I am undeniably tied to her in every way, yet despite this strong connection I will never ask her out or even tell her how I feel because for starters; dating is overrated and she is the only person that truly understands me, she’s as good of a friend than I can ask for, I would be selfish to ask for more when I already got such an awesome thing going on.
 
See, I’m simple and I don’t ask for much. You’ll laugh at this but when I don’t get these hellos and handshakes I always feel it, nothing as dramatic as a broken heart but it does leave a nagging feeling that I did something wrong. When she’s angry at me I just wish I could not be an idiot for a bit and watch what I say.
 
See, I don’t want the world despite my rants about world domination; I just want one person to be happy in this stupid sphere of a planet we live in. So I don’t care if she dates other guys or likes my brother or whatever, she doesn’t even have to consider me her best friend.
 
I am not exactly best friend material, I am arrogant in many respects and I don’t even got any good advice. I don’t stand up for her when I should, I say the wrong things at the wrong times and I act like an idiot more times than I should.
 
But right now I am at the perfect place where there is no tension. There is happiness, when you can pull fun out of trivial things because her friendship is worth more to me than, taking the chance of sounding cheesy, worth more than life itself.
 
If I had the world, the money and every person in the world as a friend but her I would be the most depressed person in the history of all humanity. I’d throw it all away because I would know I’d screwed up and I’d only hope she could like me like she used to.
 
So I am in a place in my life where I am happy, I got my best friend and I got some good friends and I got her. I got a family who loves me and I love them with the usual hostile love one has toward family. So if you think of it, I’m not really settling for the minimum but I’m settling for something so much better.
 
I like the handshakes and stuff but when it boils down to it as long as I got her friendship its all good.
 
 
 
 
 
 


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