You think you know

If only you knew the truth
The secrets that i keep
The forced smiles and fake laughs
And thoughts i store down deep
If only you knew my story
The person i used to be
The storms that i have been through
And my reality 
If only you knew my fears
Why things make me alert
I build up these walls around me
To stop me getting hurt
If only you knew what i'd lost
The oceans that I've cried
The people that have come and gone
And shoved me to the side
If only you knew my feelings
And you dared to read my book
Instead of you just judging me 
Take a closer look
You think you know so much
But you don't get to see
The person behind the barrier
That is the real me