My Life as you know it

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Ever since. Things have been happening.

Submitted: May 11, 2011

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Submitted: May 11, 2011

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 I promise you it gets better than this! It can't end like this. Everything we put up with. <And Love said no> I'll hang my heart on the wall and just stare at it. Sticks and stone make break my bones but your words they seem to kill me. <The bravest thing a man could do is cry> Everything just follows a routine everything the same. Sadly, no change. - A moment ago

Every time I miss you I stare at the moon. Honestly, it helps me. ^_^ I can't really say why because I have no idea why, but it does. Damn if only I could rewind and pause. Just breathe in the moment, then time goes by and ruins everything. Not yet though, it's just ruined a part...not everything. <The bravest thing a man could do is cry> And I wait here, trapped under this obscurity, being buried with words. And it's only typical. - 4 days ago

Fucking say something already! I'm here waiting like a fucking idiot staring at a completely fucked up life fuck up even more. Fuck, dude! It's gruesome having to sit on my fucking ass waiting for something to happen. For something to change! GAH! The Fucking agony! Its fucking depressing. Do something. Anything to let me know I still matter to you.......that would be all thank you [= Ah Fuck it I'm moving on. xP *Fuck All your fucking realities I moving to Pluto on a unicorn! Hows that for reality!! - 6 days ago

Random Quotes ^_^ -A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left.-Love begins with a smile, continues with a kiss and ends with a teardrop.-Love is like a war:Easy to begin Hard to end!-True love never dies, even if you have found a new love, the sweet memory of the past will continue to hunt you for the rest of your life.-The bravest thing that men do is cry. <Maybe if you tried we'd make it out alive.> I'll just stand and wait here, with my heart in hand. - May 3

I Just want to be heard! No one is listening no matter where I turn. I DESERVE TO BE HEARD! I Refuse to keep quiet! I REFUSE to stand still, But it seems I'll just have to put on a fake smile and pretend I'm okay, just like I always did. Sticks and stones may break my bones but your words they seem to kill me! *I didn't mean to not speak, I just didn't trust my self to talk. With open mind and words that seem to fly right by you. <I'm so very scared!> I'm a ghost in your stupid fake world. Don't mind me. (= - Apr. 28

*Sigh* I'm just going to sit down and stare at the world from now on, I'm not even going to try anymore. I give up. I quit, game over, I'm done, man. If something bad happens, it happens, if it doesn't then Fucking hallelujah! -Do what ever you want I just don't care anymore- <Now do you see? Do you see why!?> *Fuck your reality I...just fuck this, Fuck my reality too. Nothing isn't real anymore! Whatever Floats your Stupid Boat, Moron. - Apr. 27

Been a long time since I've seen my actual Family together...so happy. Why do I feel so home sick? ...I'm already at home. -__- I miss Maya And Ralphie...I really needs to talk to them. I hope to see them soon. ('= - I feel sick.- Why does the Easter Bunny hide his eggs? 'Cause he doesn't want anyone to find out he is screwing a chicken. ^_^ < When nothing goes right go left> |I won't pull the trigger I promise.!Fuck your reality I brought my own! - Apr. 23

Everything I touch turns to shit. Everything I say becomes a problem. People I care about want me dead. I can't see any of my friends because of a certain someone. I can't be with the one I want to be with because people keep pulling us apart. My family just doesn't want me. No matter how loud I yell no one will hear me. & people still don't seem to care. So yeah I agree with you everything would be better off if I was dead..but don't worry, I can make that happen.. - Apr. 19

What I need to live had been given to me by the Earth. Why I need to live has been given to me by you, you, and you.*Dork* <IF I leave you. I'm a bitch, a whore and I'll be hated on. If I stay with you I'm an idiot, lonely, and still be hated on.> There's not fucking escape. But I still love my fucked up life. |Yeah, this is what I get for trusting my fucking heart again. Damn Mistakes cause me a fucked up moment, but also lead to another great happiness. What? - Apr. 18

Everything is falling apart. Just like I knew it would. I didn't have much time to prepare though. Everything just happened so fucking fast.*DORK?*<Things are going to get worse before they get better. We just have to wait.> Gosh, today was just so fucking peaceful. Yeah, This is what I get for trusting my heart again. Fuck! - Apr. 15

Just don't bother anymore. I don't mind. I just don't expect much from you anymore. Don't worry I guess for you that's a good thing. =]*Fuck off*<Fuck it I'm pulling the trigger. Solitary moments just make me realize things I shouldn't have> |Love scares me. So I'll use hate as protection.| My notebooks and music are the only things that speak my mind...... - Apr. 13

Tell me what you really mean, what you really think. Because frankly my dear I assume you are just telling me the thing I want to hear. *Smile*<This poison called love. Just like a drug. Never realizing what it does. Until it ends..> |Loves scares me. I'm afraid..Stay with me?| When Pencil meets paper it's like the world around you is finally colliding into something beautiful. =] - Apr. 12

I Lost my life... and I hope I find it before someone completely delirious lays their twisted hands upon it.*Lost* One truth can make everything else seem like a lie.> When Pencil meets paper it's like the world is finally colliding into something beautiful.|Love scares me. I'm afraid, maybe I'll hide away and keep to myself like I used to, because surely that didn't hurt anyone but me.| - Apr. 11

Humans are fools, they only see with their eyes. Not clear in mind. Takes so long for them to realize. The true being inside.*Forget it* |I wouldn't mind kissing you all day ^_^|< Loves scares me. I'm afraid. Stay with me? Ah forget it, I'll stick with music......>"When paper meets paper......" - Apr. 5

"I believe I have lost my words, they escape my mind and get lost inside this big...big world." I still get those stupid butterflies. Your so warm!! (: -Adored and adoring xD-*DORK*| Today was great...It was just like old times, It was same but different.<Kiss me?> - Feb. 12

I don't know if anyone knows who I really am. I am not what I seem to be. I'm Hiding from nothing and I'm running away from things that can't chase me. Hiding seems like the best from me right now. | Try to find me| *DORK*< Sorry, I didn't mean to screw up, I tend to do that a lot, It's a habit of mine, don't blame me> - Feb. 1

I want to be your favorite Hello and your hardest Goodbye.|I believe, love is giving someone the power to destroy you trusting them not to, I have now been crushed, burned, tortured, shattered, but I'm still standing.*DORK*<I never stopped loving you, I just stopped showing it> - Jan. 23

I believe everything is falling apart. That thought creeps into my mind making me shutter and worry about what's going to happen next. Then I go through the memories of us and I think everything is going to be okay, then I see your smile and know it is.^_^<Hope until life gives in> - Jan. 15

I tried being positive like you told me to be and now look where that's gotten us.=/ <It's crashing down again, falling deep into the ocean!> - Dec. 29, 2010

I LOVE the rain, perfect day to eat ice cream ^_^-The Usual-*DORK*<Fuck your Reailty I brought my own> - Dec. 23, 2010


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