A letter to all the people who think they know me

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This is for all of those who judge me without knowing me. Who say they like me to my face and go and call me names behind my back. This is who i am and how i feel.

Submitted: May 19, 2009

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you can't see who i am. You don't know how i feel. How can you judge me for being who i am, when i don't even know who that is? Why do you pick on me? Is it because i stay quiet and stand still while you scream at me, make fun of me? I'm not as strong as i seem. I'm just a child, not that different from you. Why do you see me as something less then you see yourself? I can't tell you where i'm going or who i'm going to be. All i can say is that i'm trying to figure out where i belong in this place. It's hard to find your place in such a big scary world and you make it even harder. Calling me names, picking me out, torturing me, killing me slowly. My dreams are standing strong, i refuse to let you take them away from me. On the outside i smile, laugh and play. But it's because of those reason's i'm dead inside. Behind these eyes i hid, behind these laughs i cry. Kepping it inside, holding it in, taking it and keeping it. I walk amongst people, they live their meaningless life while i just stand still and watch them pass. Never will i break, never will i fall. I will go to hell and back if it means being stronger. Tired eyes tightly shut, confused mind drifts into sleep, thinking of a world that could never be. If i fall should i get up? Will tomorrow be the same as today? Should i even bother saving myself? This world has no meaning, these live's have no feelings. I walk these endless roads searching for the meaning but never coming to an answer. I tried finding my way but this world has no more to offer me. My feeling on a page, how pathetic. Nobody knows me, not even my friends. Live for today, try to forget all the disapointments life gave you. Don't care about the others, never think about yourself. Try being yourself, fat, short, hairy or old. Don't be too smart or too dumb. Too sexual or too shy. To popular or too geeky. Be yourself but make sure you fit in. This world isn't fair to me and it never will be!! What is the meaning to all these people living their lives? Why do i feel so empty? Take it away before i break. Feelings hiden beneath my skin that you will never see. Thoughts i keep to myself for only me to hear. All i ever wanted was to find what made me happy, what made me smile. But as i walk these lonely streets, i find nothing but the rain crashing down, washing away my every thought. If i could find myself as easely as i find rain, i wouldn't be feeling this hole in my heart, dragging the life out of me. I'm tired of waiting, waiting for something, someone anything to help me fill this gap in my heart that burns bigger everyday. All i'm asking, all i ever wanted from this dead, angry world was to be myself and not have people criticise me for being what i want. I want to be me, so just please will you one time let me be myself. So i can shine in my own light. Not afraid of people tearing me down and laughing.

 
Just let me be me that's all i ask...


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