Love N War

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
I've always been the strong role model type of person. love is the most greatest feeling but the thing in life that knocked me down. I am not a poetic but I found writing the only way to heal a pain I never felt before. My grammar isn't correct but it makes sense to me. Lol

Submitted: January 02, 2013

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I'm hurting inside and Only thing I can do is smile. Love Has taken my illusion on life And The things that aren't ok became ok. The impact a life can have on my emotions Sounds so unrealistic on paper simply because  have i really let someone hold my key to happiness. Maybe i jus let the wrong person wipe away my tears tell me exactly what I wanted to hear. The power of knowing I won a race that would never end so winning was no way near. Thinking I was  gunna lose but I had already lost. The smile and the warmth feeling of being happy and thinking the feeling is the same. Until the next day He was a stranger n there was the pain. It wasnt the person telling me things are alright. He was the person telling me to accept a life that i knew wasnt ok. How could u spend everyday with someone and simply walk away. He made it look easy well i was trying to understand where was my place . I've always walked away from things why couldnt I walk away from this. The pain, hurt, sweat, blood and tears. I still wanted to be near a person thats not  worth a smile from ear to ear.   I became the main character to a life I saw in movies.  my father didnt treat my mother like this so how could I let a man come in my life and take that from me. But did I take it from myself? We were happy or was it me? No wait was I happy? We made the world jealous and i saw the envy. We had everything Nice cars money and all the material things. But it covered up the pain. I still remember u that popular boy Had the looks the women and the fancy ways. Your making that paper and letting it rain. I helped you to better plans. You wanted a good job so I pushed you to a good job. You wanted high end stuff I made it possible. I pushed you to be a the man ur not suppose to be. You took things to another level in a life that wasnt just u n me. I was ur backbone but Today I decided to walk away n throw away our key but it's the first time I feel free. Asking god to lead me the right way and you know what he told me. How did u ever expect it to work he wasn't right with me. Threw the confusion u forgot to call on me. I watched you threw it all I even let u see. No one should hold ur happiness except u n me. let's start ur next chapter jus have faith in me. 


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