I've Finally Found It.

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
a story that i started writing a while ago but not sure how to finish it.;)

Submitted: July 29, 2011

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Submitted: July 29, 2011




“You can’t just stand there and say it’ll be alright, you don’t know what it’s like you don’t live in the middle of all the fighting, I do, I know what it’s like.” Jimmy screamed at me

“Don’t tell me that I don’t know,  do you ever think that there’s a reason that I live with Jess, that I don’t live with any of my family, did you ever think…” I trailed off and turned away I had never told anyone about my family.

“About what, what are you trying to tell me, 'cause it would be nice if you clued me in?” I had never seen him this agressive.

“I don’t have a family, you guys are all I have,” I turned to face him again, I was crying but I couldn’t help it “they’re dead, and I sat there and watched it. I couldn’t do anything…anything…” I just looked at him as he registered what I said; it took a while to sink in.

“I’m not looking for sympathy but before you go tell me that I don’t know anything, you need to know that.” By then I was pretty worked up.

“I’m sorry, but I have lost someone too,” he said looking at the floor “I used to have a brother.” He said without emotion, like he didn’t care, but his face told another story.

“His name was Brodie; he was 21, he killed himself.” He said in a tone that made me wonder why he brought it up at all.

“When?” was that all I could think of to say? I said harshly, why was I being such a bitch?

 “Well, he would be 30 now so you can do the math.”  He bit back in the same tone

“Look if you don’t want talk about then say, just 'cause you tell me your story doesn’t mean I’ll tell you mine, kay?” I felt kind of bad because he was opening up to me and I pretty much told him to shove it.

“Look,” I said “I didn’t mean it like that, someday I’ll tell you the whole story but for now that’s all you get, sorry.” And I really meant it, I don’t know why I attacked him, I suppose it was just instincts, my wall still hadn’t crumbled it was still strong even after all these years, nothing could just plough through it, unless I let it.

“Yeah it’s alright, I get it. It’s hard, I know.” He gave me a half smile “but…” he said looking deep into my eyes, my wall almost fell. ‘Not yet’ I told myself ‘Just feel him out’

“But what?” I asked not letting know how he made me feel. How did he make me feel? Even I don’t know that. It’s all so confusing!

“But, you have to have dinner with me and then I’ll tell you Brodie’s story, please?”

“Jeez, Jimmy, don’t sound so desperate! And yes I’ll come.” I said laughing.

I don’t even really know how the yelling match started. I think we both needed to vent and were in the wrong place at the wrong time. I have never really been friends with Jimmy but from what I’d seen of him he was alright. I was one of the kinds of people who like to just sit there and watch people do whatever they do, like if someone asked me to play a game I’d just say that I was happy to watch. So when he asked me to go to dinner with him I surprised my-self when I said yes, it was so unlike me and no-one has ever asked me out before-other than an ass-hole that did it for  dare to humiliate me- but I was glad that he had.


I was so nervous walking into ‘The Creek Beds’. This is all so new to me. He was the only one I’ve let in since everything happened the only one who has really wanted know if I was okay since the accident, like really wanted to know.

He was waiting for me at a table right next a widow, it had a great view.

“You look really pretty, Bree.” He said standing up and getting my chair for me

 “You don’t look that bad your-self.” I smiled “How long have you been waiting for me?” I asked suddenly wondering if I had gotten the time wrong.

“Not long, a couple of minute’s maybe.” He answered “Why, what time is it?” I checked my mobile

“Ten past seven,” then I asked “Can I ask you a question?”

“Sure, fire away.”

“Kay, why did you ask me to come here tonight?” I had been wondering this ever since he asked me

“Well,” he said “I think that I’d like to get to know you better and I wanted to tell you about Brodie, I just thought that you would understand, you know?”

“Yeah, it’s just that the last place I lived at this really popular guy asked me out and I said yes- at the time I wondered why- then he humiliated me so I moved. ‘Cause it don’t matter if I keep moving, cause I’m on my own, so… yeah…”

“Hey, I am definitely not that guy, first of all I ain’t popular, second that’s just mean and third I like you.” He didn’t look at me when he said that last part.

“Well, Jimmy I think you’re all right but I’ll give you a definite answer by the end of the night, promise.” He smiled

“May I take your orders?” a waiter asked

“I’ll have a Mushroom Ravioli and a glass of Coke, please.” I said

“Make that two Ravioli’s and I’ll have Lemonade, thanks.” Jimmy ordered

“May I have your menus now,” we handed them over “Thanks.” and away he went.

“So, where were we?” jimmy asked

“You were just about to tell me about Brodie.”

“Ah…yes…okay…well…my family’s pretty messed up-always has been- one day it just got too much for him, Brodes' couldn’t handle it and he… well…you know the rest. I found him hanging there, just hanging…look it’s kinda gruesome so I’m not gonna go into details but, I just stood there I couldn’t do anything I couldn’t move I just screamed and my mother came out and she just passed out-and as I told you my family’s pretty messed up, I don’t live with my Dad-yeah, so I called my father and told him that Brodie was dead and that Mum had passed out and he told me to ‘cut the crap’ by then I had was got-a-grip and I lost my temper and starting yelling at him and then I hung up and my neighbour-Mrs Smith- came to my front door wanting know what the problem was and I told her to ‘go look out the back’ and by then my Mum was coming ‘round and Mrs Smith was just freaking out and I was trying to help Mum up and stuff and then I lost it… I just ran I ran five blocks to the footy grounds and I was there for a day before they found me-” he’d gone so pale I wondered if something had drained the blood out of him.

“Two Mushroom Raviolis, a Coke-” said the waiter

“Here.” I said

“And a Lemonade.”

“Here,” the waiter put the glass down “Thanks, Man.” Jimmy said

“My pleasure.” The waiter turned on his heel and shuffled off.

“Oi,” I said just as he was about to continue “if it’s hard for you to talk ‘bout it it’s all right.” I half smiled to let him know it really was alright.

“I’ve started now so I’ll be okay, but thanks anyway.”  He flashed a kind of twisted, painful smile. I put my hand on his knee.

“You know, I really like you. And I kinda know how much it hurts so don’t feel like you have to,” I said looking deep into his big brown eyes, “I get it.”

“It’s fine, promise…yeah I was there for a day before they found me and when they did they made me a shrink for so long but it was a waste of money if you ask me ‘cause it didn’t work, blah, blah, blah, well, that’s pretty much it, so… yeah…” he seemed glad that he’d let it all out, and I didn’t blame him, I know what it’s like.

“And how are you coping now?” I asked

“Pretty good, I think,” then changing the subject “If you don’t eat your food soon I will!”

“Even if it’s cold? Why how thoughtful.” I laughed 

“Anything for you, my dear.” He said in a posh English accent and I couldn’t stop my-self from laughing

“Nice accent you got there.” We were both laughing now and I realised that I wanted to tell him everything. My wall was crumbling.




“Hey,” I said “Can I tell you ‘bout my family, like, now? Do you mind?”

“No, it’s fine; you sat and listened to me through dinner now it’s my turn to listen”

“Two years ago, I lived in Melbourne with my family-me, my Mum, my Dad and my little brother Nick-  life was great, I had the best family and everything was perfect, and then…” I was trying not to cry, but it was hard.

“Hey, it’s gonna be alright, everything’s all right,” He said he wrapped his arms around me “You’re gonna be fine.” My wall was gone.

“Car crash…I was there… everyone died…except me and I don’t know why,” I said softly into his chest. “So ‘cause I’m eight-teen I don’t have to have a guardian or anything. I move every now and then if a place reminds me of them-” he cut me off.

“You’re not leaving Fremantle, are you?” he looked…worried.

“No, I’m not leaving; so far I like this place and the people in it,” I laughed

“Where was I?” I asked quietly

“You move whenever you want…” he answered

“On Tuesday the 23rd of December 2008 my family went for a drive to look at Christmas lights and this car came screaming ‘round the corner and just went head on into us, he hit the front of the car and that killed my parents instantly and then the car flung ‘round and my brother was sitting in the back seat centimetres away from me and the car slammed into a telegraph pole and he was crushed and I was stuck cause the doors were all dented and you couldn’t open them and the windows were electric so I couldn’t crawl out of one and there was nothing to smash it with… I waited for half an hour before any one came and then I took them hours to get me out so I just sat there looking at them…blood was everywhere and they went so pale and…I…it…” i pulled away from him and slid down the wall behind us-we had left the restaurant and were walking along the street- he sat down too.

“Hey, I’m sorry, do you wanna go home?” he asked

“No, not yet let’s go have some fun. Jess’ out tonight so do you want to go to my place after?” I said trying to change the subject, it worked.

“What’s your idea of fun?” he asked smiling

“I’ll show you!” and I dragged him off.




We were sitting on the pier at South Beach, feet in the water and to my surprise, hand in hand!

“Hey, Bree?” he asked kind of nervously

“Yeah?” I said turning to look at him

“You wanna go and get a coffee at my place, or something?”

“I thought we were gonna go to my place after we had fun?” I laughed and he cracked his killer smile.

 We were both a little wet and sandy, we had been wading in ankle deep water when I tripped over my feet, when Jimmy caught me I splashed him and we got in a water fight and then I tackled him and we ended up all sandy and cold and the he lent me his jacket and we have been sitting here hand in hand since.

“Who’s home at your place?” I asked

“I’m not sure; I don’t think anyone’s home. You?”

“Jess was going away for the weekend, so…” I was hoping that we could go to my place so I would kind of get to run things. I like to be in control

“Well, it might be better if you want some privacy, to go to yours, do you think?” he asked.

“Yeah, kay,” I said “Do you wanna catch a taxi? I live on the other side of town.”

“Yeah, sure.” And he got out his phone and called for a taxi. We had to wait ten minutes for them to get here and by then we were both really cold. We were huddling up together to keep warm.

“Where to?” the taxi driver asked

“Thirteen Barker street, please.” I asked

“You live on Barker street?!” he looked shocked

“Yeah, what’s wrong with that?”

“Didn’t a guy get shot there?” he asked

“I don’t know it was cheap; remember I never live in one place for long?”

“Yeah," i said "Sorry.”



  “Thanks,” I said to the driver as I paid him. Then to Jimmy; “Here we are…”

“Wow this is neat!” he said when we got into my apartment

“Which bit?” I asked

“Like the whole place it just looks so laid back and relaxed, you know?” he asked looking a little awed

“Well it’s one of the best places I have ever lived in.” I said picking up some dirty dishes and stuff.

“So do you think you’ll stay long?” he asked serious now

“Yeah, I think so, I really like the city of Fremantle and,” I looking into his big brown eyes for the second time tonight “And the people in it. A lot.”

“That’s good ‘cause I like you too, a lot.” He smiled

“Tea or coffee?” I asked as I walked into the kitchen

“Coffee, please. Do you want a hand?”


“Nah, I’m right, how do you take it?” I asked peering around the corner; Jimmy was sitting on the couch flicking through a magazine.

“However it comes, I’m not picky.” He said putting the magazine back

“You’re probably gonna regret that,” I laughed “Last person who said that threw up.”

“And who was that? I bet you they had a weak stomach. Mine’s made of steel.” We were both laughing hard now.

“No, it was Jess!”

“You mean rough-as-guts Jess Tanner? You have gotta be kidding me?!” I had already told him all about Jess-my flat-mate-and how she was like a sister to me.

“Nope even Jess can’t handle my killer coffee!” It felt so easy joking with Jimmy like that it was the first time in two years that I’d felt this light.

“I think I’ll make my own then.” He laughed and he actually did he made mine as well. It was actually really good.



“What movie do you wanna watch?” I asked showing him our tiny collection. “Remember Me, When In Rome, The Other Guys, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Valentine’s Day, Deck The Halls-I don’t know where that one came from- Win A Date With Tad Hamilton, Cake, Get Him To The Greek, Tomorrow When The War Began, The Runaways, The Haunted Airman, The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo, The Tooth fairy, Titanic and that’s pretty much it. So do you like the sound of any of them?”

“You pick,” he said from the couch “I don’t really mind.”

“Kay, um…Remember Me or… When In Rome or… Titanic, you pick out of those ones.”

“Well I haven’t seen the first one, is it any good? I think I’ve seen the other two.”

“How did you know?” I asked

“Know what?”

“Remember Me, it’s my favourite movie!” I said putting the DVD in the player

“Lucky choice, I guess,” He laughed and patted the couch “Now is this a sad movie? I don’t want you crying on me!” he laughed. I selected play on the menu then got comfy right next to Jimmy on the couch.

“He can stand me up but he can’t stand you-“The movie cut out, all the lights when out

“Black-out,” Jimmy said “Got any candles?”

“I think so, somewhere” I said going to the cupboard in the dining room “They should be in here, somewhere I think.” He came over and helped me.

“Here’s one,” he pulled it out

“Kay, I’ll go get some matches,” And just as I lit the candle the lights came back on and the TV came back on “Damn.” I cursed it had taken us like half an hour to find one candle and a box of matches. It was so frustrating.


When the movie ended I turned to talk about it with Jimmy and we were talking about Nine-Eleven and I looked into his eyes and said; completely off subject “I think I’m in love with you, Jimmy…”

“I was kinda hoping you’d say something like that but I didn’t think you would.” He said shyly

“Why would you think that?” I asked

“‘Cause you’re perfect…”



“Hey, Bree you home?” Jess called as she walked in the door

“Do I say yes or no?” I whispered to Jimmy, I was lying on the couch, my head in his lap

“That depends, no matter if you say yes or no she’ll know you’re here so would it be childish of me to hide or will you just say nothing at all?” he laughed at his own joke. Cute.

Just then Jess walked into the room;

“Hey, why didn’t you an-” she stopped eyes popping out “Who is this?”

“Jess… this is Jimmy…” I said looking from Jess to Jimmy.

“Hey, so you’re rough-as-guts Jess, who couldn’t handle Bree’s coffee, is it really that bad?” Jimmy said probing me with his eyes.

“Should I know you?” Jess asked looking at Jimmy, then at me “Bree, can you come give me a hand in the kitchen, like now?” she said sounding a little confused. And when we were alone; “So… is he…special?”

“Well, I hope so considering I was just lying with my head in his lap.” I said blushing.

“How long have you known this guy?” she asked

“Awhile, but he’s real. He gets me; he’s been through what I’ve been through, or something similar.”

“Still, are you sure you should jump into this? Like, I want you to be happy but I also don’t want to see you burned, Kay?” she said and I believed her she was only looking out for me.

“Yeah I know but… I need this for better or worse, Jess…I know that you don’t wanna see my get burnt but this is my mistake to make…if this was any other guy he wouldn’t still be here… he wouldn’t be here at all but, he knows what it’s like- hang on what are you doing here I thought you were gone for the weekend? What happened?” I said suddenly realising that she wasn’t supposed to be here

“Nothing, don’t worry.” She said

“No, I told you so now you gotta tell me.” I said deciding not to let this slide.

“I’ll tell you later, remember you have a guest?”

“Okay, Okay. Later.” I said firmly. I grabbed a packet of Tim—tams and threw half of them on a plate and then put the other half in the fridge, Then took them into the lunge room.

“I hope you like tam-tams.” I said flopping back onto the couch.

“Love ‘em.”


“Kay, see you tomorrow?” Jimmy said as he walked out the door.

“Bye, yeah tomorrow.” I said to Jimmy. Then to Jess; “So… what’s the verdict?”

“Well…” she said making a face “I think he’s a keeper, just promise me you’ll be careful, kay?”

“Who are you, my mother? But yes I promise I’ll be careful.” She got me in a headlock and said; “Would your mother give you a nogie?”

“Good question,” I said giving her a half smile “Good question.”

“Hey, I’m sorry… I didn’t mean it like that…” she said

“It’s kay, I know that,” then changing the subject “You were going to tell me why your home so early…”

“Really it’s nothing.” She said but she didn’t look at me when she said it so I knew better.

“Come on Jess, you know I’m not gonna let this slide, your gonna have to tell me sooner or later.”

“I’ll take later.” She said. ‘Damn’ I thought ‘it back-fired’

“Promise you’ll tell me?”

“Look, I had a major fight with my parents ‘bout movin’ home they, don’t think that I should’ve moved out of home-never did- but it’s none of their business so I left. Kay?” she looked angry and upset.


“It’s okay, don’t worry ‘bout it.”


“Hey,” I said as I opened the door to see a nervous Jimmy standing there fiddling with his back-pack “Wanna come in?” I asked stepping aside

“Nah, I was just wondering if you wanted a ride to school

“Yeah, but I’m still getting ready?”

“I’ll wait.”

“Kay, the couch is free if you wanna sit down.” I said pointing to the couch

“Thanks.” He said walking over and flopping into it.

“I’ll try not to take too long but no promises.” We both laughed.

When I was in my room I sat down on the edge of my bed and looked into my mirror, I was finally happy and I didn’t feel guilty for feeling it. I put on some black skinny jeans and a purple spaghetti strap singlet top and some yellow converse sneakers then I pulled my hair into a messy bun on the side of head put on a bit of mascara, some eye-shadow and some lip-gloss, I grabbed my bag a went out into the lunge room to meet Jimmy,

“Wow, you look really pretty, Bree.”

“Thanks, do you wanna go now, cause it’s like ten-to-nine?”


“Nice ride!” it was my dream car a red Alfa Romeo “You have got to be kidding me this is your car?!”

“Pretty neat, huh?”

“Yeah! It’s like, my dream car.” I was so stoked

“Looks like we have something else in common.”

“You have very good taste Jimmy Dawson, very good taste,” I kissed him on the lips “I love you.”

“I love you too…but are you sure this is what you want…” he said looking deep into my eyes “I heard bits and pieces when you were talking to Jess last night, but I wasn’t eves-dropping.” He added quickly

“No, I know what you mean but she’s just trying to make sure I don’t get burned, but I know what I want and I trust you-so don’t let me down.” I laughed

“Don’t worry,” he put his arms around me “I won’t,” I sank into his chest “I promise.”

“Thank you.”

“Let’s go or we’re gonna be super late.”

“Kay,” he opened my door for me “Thanks, you’re a gentle-man, nice, I like it.”


“Your seriously gonna let me drive your car?!” I asked “If it was mine I’d tell you to take a hike, you’re the best boy-friend ever!” I really couldn’t believe that I was going to drive my dream car!

“So I’m your boy-friend now, thanks Bree! I love you.” He said leaning down to kiss the top of my head.

“I love you too,” I said pulling away so I could kiss him back “Forever.”

“Are you gonna drive this baby or what?”

“Of course I am you think I’d give a once-in-a-life-time opportunity like this the flick? You gotta be kidin’ me!”

“Course I am I may not have known you that well for that long but I know you well enough!”

“I know I was just kidding, you know that don’t you?”


“Oh mi god, this is awesome! It handles so well! You’re the best! I love you, I love you, I love you!!!”

“I love you too. But could you calm down just a little bit? Please!?” he laughed at me.


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