Nothing's Changed

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In two years, I've changed a lot, but I haven't changed at all...

Submitted: May 07, 2012

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It has been two years since I told someone I liked them, that  way. I've changed a lot since then. I used to be a lot stupider. I believed that wishes came true, and that the world was beautiful. Now I know that the only wishes that come true are the ones that go wrong.

A lot of people know me as a bouncy, extremely random kid. Sure, I'm sad sometimes, but everyone is. I am not that kid. That's my façade. Or at least it used to be. I've used that façade for so long, that now, sometimes, it becomes real. But I pay for those happy moments when my façade slips, when I feel that great emptiness yawning inside me just the way it used to. When I can't sleep at night. When I can't hear Nickelback because there is so much noise inside my head. When I miss people so much that it hurts. When simple questions make me nervous; make my heart trip and my stomach drop down to my feet.

Your past never leaves you; I know that now. You can get over people, but you can't get over the things they did to you. I've grown a lot in two years but nothing's changed.

I've grown up so, so much and all I want to do is really be that random, happy, stupid kid.

I don't want to lie to people and I don't want to fail school. I don't want to fall in love.

Because when I do, all I am, all I'll ever be, is the broken girl on the floor. The girl who gets hurt.


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