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Before you read what follows let me first explain something to you. There is a website on the net called 'Booksie.com' - This site is a place which allows people from all over the world to post writings of all natures, from miscellaneous items such as - views of some kind or particular interest of a persons thoughts or otherwise, all the way down to erotica - be it, an article, short story, novel, poem, etc. Although it clearly states that it is a publishing site, you are not publishing anything when you post your work on it, you are merely allowing the site to give others the opportunity to read and comment on your works. In turn, giving you perspective on it. As if it were really out in the world on the shelf, except, without the whole 'publishing' part of it. You get reviewed by random people. Some are of a high standard of critique and some may just say 'I love this writing, keep writing' or words to that effect.

Now, on this site it is possible for people to view your works as soon as it is 'published', {posted} thereby, allowing people on the site to read and comment as they feel appropriate. I have found that the site has technical problems in this area and many other areas also. Such as profile alterations here and there, text editing, etc. Generally though, it is fairly easy to navigate and understand. It is possible to create the profile page you have in mind {to a certain extent} although the technical difficulties in doing so and altering some details can be tiresome most of the time and make you want to give up at times. That said, most of the way the site itself is run is average at best but capable enough to use and retain enjoyment from as well as benefiting at ones own preference by using the features available. To those who have average skills and can get to grips with basic layout, simplicity and structure will be able to understand the sites pages and how they work, well enough to use them.

In my overall experience of this site I have found that, roughly, 70% or so of it is enjoyable, be it the friends made or the pleasure of finding that people have commented on part of your works. The reasoning for this is that I have had a good many reads of my works as well as a good many comments and 'likes'. I was even featured on the homepage of the site itself, in the not so distant past, so I must have been doing something right, eh?

The cause for most of the negative issues relating to my visits of this site are the people who inhabit it. They consist of about 85% of the negative issues the other 15% is the site itself and the problems it has. Considering the treatment I have had to put up with and the way in which the issues have been dealt with, I shall be naming those on this blog as a marker of what has taken place between the periods of October 2011 and November 2011.

This is just a small portion {and I mean small} of the destructive voices of some of the members on the site in question. These are as follows;

'EILEEN MCGUINNESS' was the first of whom who began the whole ordeal of episodes which later became part of the reason why I left, even though I was also banned. At first she seemed like a very nice 'critique' {I use the word 'critique' because that is how she spoke of those who commented on her works as well as her own regard of herself, not to mention, the fact that it is the correct terminology} We exchanged comments and we hit it off, talking about one another's poems. {As I do, or rather, 'did' not comment on any other specific types of works such as novels or short stories, etc} Until I asked her to, be so kind, as to read my entire works and tell what she thought considering I had read all of hers and commented on as many as I felt the need to. She said that she would and happily 'promised' that she would take time to do so. I did not hear from her for a couple of days which was out of character for her but I was not upset about this only concerned as she had told me in a conversation that she had deteriorating health even though I visited my fans profiles and noticed that she was, in fact, writing comments on their works as well as leaving messages on their profile wall.. I then heard from her when she left me a message on my profile wall two or three days after I had asked her for the favour. This is what she had to say;

--"i haven't forgot my promise to start reviewing your poems and today is the day.I will do an intense review between 1500 and 1545. "-- Which, I believe, I received on the 18th / 19th of October, although she did not follow through and I did not hear from her in regard to this, again, for a day or two afterward but did notice she had visited my fans profiles again and could see for myself that she was, in fact, still writing comments on their works as well as leaving messages on their profile walls. After I found out that she was doing as such, I wrote to her asking her not to make promises that she couldn't keep and I also informed my fans about what had happened, as you can imagine, she was upset about it and clearly annoyed that I had told others about what had happened.{'upset' and 'annoyed' being massive understatements}

The first harsh quote, of many, I received from 'EILEEN' - which she left on my profile wall on 'Booksie.com' is what you will see below. Although I cannot remember the exact date it was posted I am sure it was between the 20th of October 2011 and the 23rd of October 2011. This person is now known as 'WATCHYOURBACK' on booksie.com as I have received another message from her, of which, I cannot reply. Not that I would if I could, as this fiasco is all over with in my opinion.

This blog is purely an account and recollection of what occurred and seems to still be occurring.

--"For your information little man (jewboy)i never fall out with anyone who hasn't been a complete duschbag unlike yourself.You deserve the treatment i am giving you  because you have insulted my personality,integrity by calling me a liar about reviewing your work and now you are slandering my good name to other folk  on booksie which just makes you look a complete jerk.I'm glad that i found you out early.I'm a good judge of character so considered yourself judged.So  what you have over 100 fans how many of them will be bothered with your silly games.You have proved to me once again that PLAGIARISM is alive and kicking within BOOKSIE.{When she says 'plagiarism, she means, because I used her messages in quotations on my profile news and when I spoke of her to others about what had happened never using lies or making up information, only quoting directly}If you can be bothered to cut and paste comments i have made on my page not on your page then this proves either you have the patience of JOB {Not entirely sure what her reference is here} or you have had a lot of practice copying other people's work.I'm wondering which it is.Your poetry is too good for your inept character and it's of varying  style not one person could have written all of your poems they are too different.{Now she has starting saying that my works are not my own}Why do you write in capitals like me? are you trying to shout at the reader?. I do it for a reason because of poor eyesight.Anyway i see this little feud will run and run and no doubt you wlllpost this on your news section again.Do you honestly believe i give a darn.Now go back and play with your little toys which you knocked out of your pram earlier before mommy comes looking."--

I am aware that I write in capitals. It is so I can tell the difference between my comments/messages and other folks, this is what I posted on my profile news;

October 28th 2011. --"JUST TO LET EVERYONE KNOW, EILEEN MCGUINESS DELETES COMMENTS THAT PEOPLE GIVE HER ON HER WORKS SO I WOULD NOT BOTHER TO WRITE ANY ON THEM. I HAVE EXPERIENCE OF THIS AND I AM TELLING YOU THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH, THANKS AND HAVE A NICE DAY"--

This was her retort to my news, which she must have read as soon as I posted it;

October 28th 2011.--"As you can all gather i am being stalked by a stupid unintelligent moron a.k.a. STRIVER.It appears he cannot get over my criticism of his immature behaviour. He's having a laugh if he thinks what he says and does makes me quiver or shake.Look at the picture in his avatar it's that of a child not a grown man,so who's the idiot now matey?.STRIVER stands for the following - STUPID. TIMID .REALLY. IRRITATING. VERY. ENTERTAINING. RETARD'"--

I decided to construct a post and put it into me news feed after reading her post. I realise that it is extremely immature of me but I felt that I had the right;

--"S-weet. T-errific. R-adical. I-mpressive. V-ivacious. E-nergetic. R-eveler"--

Her message, posted on a great many people's profile walls following mine;

--"IT SEEMS STRIVER 7777 A.K.A. BEN IS CAUSING A NUISANCE TO ME WITH HIS SLANDEROUS COMMENTS ATTRIBUTED TO ME. I CAN CATEGORICALLY DENY THAT I HAVE EVER WRITTEN WHAT HE HAS SAID. I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE'S ON BUT I'M GETTING SICK AND TIRED OF MY NAME BEING DRAGGED THROUGH THE DIRT, MAKE WHAT YOU WILL OF HIS WORDS.I HAVE ASKED HIM TO STOP IT{Which she never did, not even once. The only messages I got were extremely unkind ones} BUT IT WOULD SEEM HE'S HAVING NONE OF IT. SOME FOLK AREN'T AS NICE AS THEY APPEAR AND WILL BE JUDGED BY PEOPLE WITH A HIGHER IQ THAN BOTH OF US. WHO REALLY CARES AT THE END OF THE DAY,LIFE IS TOO SHORT,MUCH LOVE FROM EILEEN"--

This is another post that she left on her profile page in her news section as well as on many people's profile walls, trying to accuse me of fabricating the message she left me on my profile wall;

October 29th 2011. --"How do we know that you haven't composed this message STRIVER77777?"--

I then decided that enough was enough and posted this message on her profile wall;

October 29th 2011 --"EILEEN, you will not hear from me again about any of this or anything else because I am done with it all, thank you very much -Ben"--

This is, yet another message, left by 'EILEEN', on many people's profile walls on October 30th 2011 ;

--"I have seen many comments made by striver on other folk's pages today.{NOT POSTED ON THE 30TH THOUGH}Isn't it obvious that this person is a sandwich short of a picnic,i'm not the one who is losing my mind.Well it all started when "it" wanted me to review all of his writing.I said that i would do my best but unfortunately i have had pc problems this week.{{Oct 28, 2011  "i haven't forgot my promise to start reviewing your poems and today is the day.I will do an intense review between 1500 and 1545."- this did not happen and when I asked her about it she denied that she had even written this at all and never said anything to me about any problems she may or may not have been suffering with her PC/laptop, until I left her the message asking her not to make promises that she was unable to keep}}.He then made comments to suggest  because i hadn't kept my word due to circumstances out of control that i was liar.I found his attitude deplorable and very upsetting but was willing to move on and forgive and forget even though i have done nothing to deserve his slanderous comments and this hate campaign against me throughout the booksie community. {'EILEEN deleted all of her comments on my poems after I informed some of my close fans about the promise she made but never kept}He calls me a racist and a person who is filled with hate and prejudice.{Do I need to remind everyone of what she wrote in her message to me after I informed some of my fans about what had happened, and what I actually wrote on my friends walls was the exact quote from her to myself}Well make what you will of it.I am prepared to offer an olive branch,life is too short to get bitter and it interferes with creating thinking."--{She was willing to forgive and forget if I was to apologize to her and all of her fans for quoting what she had written on my profile wall. Although I do not have the exact quote as I, unfortunately, deleted it}

I wasn't prepared to do that considering the message I had already posted to her.

Instead I constructed a message and wrote it on my news feed, for all to read, in order to try and stop this absurd argument in its tracks.

October 30th 2011.  --"I have told 'EILEEN' that I will not be commenting further on her page but it appears she is not finished with this whole thing 8D THANX AGAIN those who have come and read my wall and my news. >>>>>>>>For those reading this, if you would take careful consideration of the dates of posts. I had finished with all this yesterday and will be ignoring EILEEN as I have already explained to her in my last post on her wall on the 29th- which was yesterday- that I would not be commenting on her page any further and that this is finished with but as you can clearly see she wants 'A FULL APOLOGY' from me 'AND TO ALL OF THOSE PEOPLE SLANDERED OR IT'S ALL OUR WAR' as you can see on my wall. I have not deleted it for this reason. TY for your time everyone.  8D and have a wonderful HALLOWEEN <}

Although I did end up deleting it, as I am sure you will all understand. This was how she replied to my news, which she posted on all of my fans profile walls and hers;

--"It sounds like he's done with all of this doesn't it?,if you play with fire then you have to expect to get burnt metaphorically speaking.I wasn't the one who went spouting and spamming messages to all of my friends on booksie.I have decided to let bygones be bygones it's better that way.By him inviting you to his page he is  acting in a provactive manner but that's just my opinion.Why do people need to be brought to someone's page to see words which have been written by himself against me?. I can't cut and paste from his page but apparently he can do so on my page,interesting. I thought booksie had sorted the right click issue"--

Again, for some reason she was trying to say that the message she had written on my profile wall was fabricated by myself. Let me remind everyone that in order to gain access to an account you need to know the email address attributed to the pen-name and the password to gain entry to a said account. I know mine. I do not know hers and even if I did know her email how would I ever know what her password is. It's madness pure and simple.

I then received a message from someone on booksie, who will not name because she was kind to me and was one of my kindest fans as well as the fact that she has the right to have her identity kept hidden. She had this to say about my news;

October 31st 2011 --"Listen. I have no idea why you and Eileen do not get along. I wish you would, but since that does not seem to be the case, then do not speak to each other at all. If she speaks to others, that is between them and her. You have no need to jump in. I am sure they can speak for themselves. Just walk away and let it go.  I told her the same thing. I am not a mediator. I don't want to be. That is not why I came here. Just please, if it has to do with this little fude between you two, don't bother leaving me a comment on it.  I do not like it. I asked the same of her too. I believe I already told you this. I am willing to be friends with everyone here, and I like to  give others the benefit of the doubt. I love it here, and do not want my stay ruined by arguments that could be avoided. You can both can just stay away from each other. Its a shame it has gotten this far. Just please,  I am not taking sides, I am not gonna mediate. Just drop the whole thing. Free yourself from the whole thing, I am sure she will do the same thing."--

To which I replied;

October 31st 2011 --"Either way. I have heard enough nasty things from herself to me that she has made poignantly clear by posting on my wall which I have now deleted. I can make you the same promise I have everyone else who has come to me and started to ridicule me about what seems to be going on, if it means stopping all this nonsense.- When I say promise I mean to stop posting any comments on your wall as well as anyone else who won't let this go. I never started the nastiness she did. I just thought people had the right to know about it. Cos I would always love to have a heads up in regards to people who would delete their comments on people's poems so I don't waste time replying to them and to steer clear of them because they are racists. Do you get what I am talking about."--

To which 'EILEEN' responded, as she must have read it herself, with this message and posting it on just about everyones profile wall;

--"IT DOESN'T APPEAR THAT STRIVER WANTS TO MOVE ON DOES IT?.NOW TO PUT MY ANGLE ON IT. FOLK KNOW THAT ALL I HAVE EVER DONE IS BE NICE.I JUST WANT TO SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT ONE FINAL TIME.FROM MY POINT OF VIEW I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHERE HE IS COMING FROM IN REGARD TO WHAT I HAVE SUPPOSEDLY SAID,WHERE IS HIS PROOF?,I CHALLENGE HIM TO PROVIDE IT AND IF HE CAN'T THEN HE SHOULD BLOODY WELL SHUT UP.NOBODY WANTS TO KEEP READING ALL OF HIS NEGATIVE RUBBISH,I'M SURE WE ARE ALL ADULT ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT HE HAS STARTED THIS CAMPAIGN AGAINST ME ON BOOKSIE.DOES HE THINK THAT PEOPLE WILL JUST TAKE HIS SIDE?,THERE ARE TWO SIDES TO ANY ARGUMENT.HE BEGAN THIS DISPUTE BY SLANDERING MY NAME.I THINK HE IS ONLY REAPING WHAT HE SOWS AND IS A COMPULSIVE LIAR.AT FIRST HE WAS A FRIEND THEN HE BECAME MORE CHARMING. I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW THAT HE HAS BEEN HARRASSING ME AND IT SHOWS NO SIGN OF ENDING.PLEASE MAKE WHAT YOU WILL OF WHAT HE HAS SAID BUT HE'S NOT FOOLING ME."--

To this day I still have not written anything to her, as promised or to any of the other people who seemed to take her side and start battling her corner on her behalf. Yet still I received messages from her, constantly. One saying;

--"Bwark bwark bwark feeling a little yellow are we striver!?"-- as well as a great deal more which I have deleted as soon as I read them, not sure why I even read them, and now she has had her profile banned. Yet still she has created another account and persists to try and arouse my anger and start this whole thing up again. This is what is posted on her own profile;

WATCHYOURBACK

Nov 21, 2011.--"HAS ANYONE SEEN BENJAMIN POLHILL LATELY?.IT SEEMS HE'S GONE AWOL WITH HIS PSYCHOTIC GIRLFRIEND A.K.A (DRAGONSFIRE).HEY STRIVEY I'VE GOT ALL OF YOUR HITS.HOW'S MIDDLESEX TODAY?,WHY DID YOU SACK THE BEARD.I LOVE BEARDS HA HA.SO YOU WON'T BE COMING BACK WELL CAN'T SAY WE OR ANY OF US WILL REALLY MISS A SCUMBAG LIKE YOU.I MEAN YOU ACTUALLY SAID ON ONE OF MY POEMS THAT YOU WANTED ME TO HURRY UP AND DIE.HOW DID YOU GET AWAY WITH THAT?.THE BAD THING FROM YOUR POINT OF VIEW IS THAT I HAD MADE COPIES OF EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAD WRITTEN ABOUT ME BEFORE THIS STUPID COPY AND PASTE IP TRACER CAME IN TO OPERATION.MY BRIEF IS GOING TO BE VERY BUSY HE NEEDS TO CHECK OUT GOOGLE TO MAKE SURE HE HAS THE RIGHT STREET,PREPARE FOR A RATHER LOUD KNOCK ON YOUR DOOR PRETTY SOON.IT WON'T BE ME IT MIGHT BE A SALESMAN OR EVEN A POSTMAN OR PERHAPS SOMEONE WHO NEEDS TO DROP SOME PAPERS OFF FROM THE COURT.THERE WILL BE JUSTICE IT'S MY OWN GOAL NOW J/B.{Refering to the name she gave me, when she posted her first, hateful, message to me on my profile wall, at the beginning of this whole feud -'JEWBOY'} OH JUST A WORD TO ALL OF THE OTHER PEOPLE WHO HATE ME,I'M NOT GOING EASY ON ANY OF YOU."--

This is what she then posted on my profile that is still active but I cannot access because my ip has been banned. Using her newly made account;

November 21st 2011. --"Don't believe the hype once a person start lying they never know when to stop.You reap what you sow i agree and amongst the sewer rates there is a little place where you should reside.I'm surprised you are still around after all of the things you have said,stop the world i'm getting off.Ps nobody in the right mind would dedicate a poem to such a moron as you."--

Now, you probably thought that this would all be over and done with without one person arguing how can an argument persist. Well. Someone else called 'GIDEON' thought she should have her say. Even after I explained to her, the same thing I explained to others, about not leaving anymore posts on their walls and 'promising' to do so, if that is what she wished. She left me a comment, which I have now deleted, indirectly calling me a 'serial killer' and when I then left a comment on one of her 'poems', not her profile wall, saying that I thought it wasn't really a poem at all she lost her mind and wrote this on my profile wall as well as my partners, 'dragonsfire' {who decided to try and start writing some works of her own} In chronological order. What must be taken into consideration is that the message I left on her 'poem' was as follows, 'a quote from 'THE GAME' - a song called 'the documentary'. The intro where the child says, --"Bitch I want my motherfucking money back"-- because I felt that I had been conned. This was her retort;

November 17th 2011. --"Okay, you have the top of my profile all to yourself, but only for today, that way everyone I told about your comment can read it. Did that turn you on, Striver, to read about how horrific Patty's death was then attack me (weeks later) through my work? You see, I'm 36 and grew up with street smarts, so I know when someone is mucking with me and WHY. You're so obvious. So, so obvious. Now I see why everyone warned me about you when I joined.Apparently this isn't the first time you've attacked someone through their work. 'Of course, since I'm 36 and not 17, I'll be deleting anymore comments you leave without reading them.'{After this message I gave her the same promise I gave the others} And, Striver, not one single person is going to believe that you did what you did for any other reason than why you did it. Not all of us are nave. Don't worry, I won't leave you anymore comments after this. I don't waste my time on EVIL, disturbed children.

This was when I raced back to her profile page and wrote; --" I am sorry to hear about the loss of whoever it was and for whatever reason they are no longer with us all"-- just to clarify that it was, in no way, a result of the horrible news that I made the comment on her 'poem', yet still, look what ensued;

Still the 17th --"The "serial killer" comment wasn't just about you, it was about your fellow Brit Aa Harvy as well. Here it is. Aa Harvy looks like a serial killer and writes a lot about porn, drugs, suicide, Satan, and so forth. You, on the other hand, are handsome and have a more sensitive take when it comes to what you are writing about. Now, most people would naturally assume that it was the freak that looked like a swamp rat who was the serial killer, and not the handsome sensitive poet.{So what she is actually saying is even worse, because technically, she is being racist and I don't even think she realises it herself. Saying that I remind her of someone - who is British - on this site called Aa Harvey, who she believes, 'looks' like a serial killer and that 'I' remind her of him. WOW! What a revelation} You might not get the humor of that since you are a male, but as a female, yes, it's pretty f**king funny.{and now she's being SEXIST!} Now stay the F**K off my wall! I'm not buying your bullsh!t for one second. Why are you reading my work--someone you don't even like--now?{WHEN DID I SAY I DIDN'T LIKE HER??} NOW? You did know about Patty's death. Yes you f**king did!{Is she trying to convince me that I knew or herself?} And not a single person is going to buy your $h!t--least of all me. I know exactly what you're about. Leaving? Might be a good idea since most people here OBVIOUSLY don't like you. AT ALL.{I thought it was me who didn't like her, I'm confused} Now I know why."--

17th --"I left a few comments on your other page. You know, Dragonsfire. So, so easy. A lot like shooting fish in a barrel. Why isn't your girlfriend mentioned on your bio? That seems really odd. I would think (if she were real that is) that you would mention that she just joined. You would have something about her if she were real. I think it's time I investigated you more thoroughly. You really think that people are going to read my comments left for you, compare it to the one you left for me, at this time, and not think I was justified? You're not just creepy, but crazy. No one's going to think I'm a bad guy for defending myself, especially when no one likes you anyway. Again, creepy. Oh, and I know what I said, so you don't have to tell me. Again, no one's going to believe didn't call me a b!tch or that you chose this time to attack me for any other reason than why you did it. You're the bad guy, Striver. You are. I got all day and all night to play with you, sister. You're really sick. Again, I'm justified you are not."--

Then, her sister 'apparently' using account name-'chikeria12'- decided to start giving me abuse as well;

Still the 17th --"I don't know you. I don't want to. I don't care to. Because honestly, I don't care. I have nothing against you but when you start messing with my big sister then your messing with me, too. I don't like fighting, and I really don't want to. I don't want to cuss at you or start a fight. I'm just tired of reading about the drama that you've been entertwined with. I'm just here to ask you to act mature. For perhaps maybe a few minutes so you can realize how immature you're acting right now. You must be very low to talk to Gideon like that when a close family member dies. I'm sure you wouldn't like that being done to you. As for Gideon having a picture of a male as her profile picture, that's not weird at all. I know men that have had girl pictures. Maybe she just likes that picture? If so, then its not your buisness. Please just drop it. Stop being immature please. Booksie is a website for writing, not fighting. The spam? Yes, that's very immature. Again, I'm pretty close to Gideon so I'd really really perfer you just act mature and drop it. Please. I'm not here to slander you or fight, I just want the whole thing dropped. Please. Please don't argue with me or spam me or anything else, I just want a little peace for my friend at a bad time in her life right now. So thanks, if you've read this far and listened. Please just let it go."--

Still the 17th --"Nobody is ganging up on you. I will talk to the 13-year-old who left you that comment and ask her not to do it again. I didn't know she left it until I logged back on. I, apparently, am the only adult here, so I will lay off of you now that I know you're a child.{Not sure where she got that information from considering I am 26 years of age and didn't she hint at the idea that I was 17 in one of her earlier messages to myself? Although I could be mistaken} I wish you would have told me that after you called me a b!tch.{What I actually wrote was a quote from 'THE GAME' - a song called 'the documentary'. The intro where the child says' Bitch I want my motherfucking money back' because I felt that I had been conned, as the poem didn't appear to be a poem at all. I thought that considering she left me a message on my profile wall, no less, where everyone can come and read it - saying that I reminded her of a serial killer - she wouldn't take offence to what I had commented. Apparently, I was sorely mistaken} If you would have I would have let go. I thought you were at least 19.{Oh so, if I was 19 then she would have been justified in all that she has done and said. Makes sense} Uh, and you did know that my pic is of a pervert, right?{Well I should know shouldn't I, being a serial killer and all, although, I did not} That's why I picked it, as a joke.{I still don't get it, what's funny about a serial killer? Or a pervert for that matter. I didn't realise I was attending a stand up comedy show} Okay, kiddo, you're cool with me as long as you can refrain from doing that to my work again. Doing what you did earlier was really mean. You just don't leave comments like that on people's work because you don't like them. This whole situation with Patty and her kids is a bad deal and I, even though I claim to be fine right now, am having some issues with the way she suffered for two weeks (I couldn't even go in and look at the body, too much crying going on and it was, scary I guess). Now I don't mind you using my pic if you want to (actually, I wasn't going to say anything about it and let you find out on your own) but I don't want someone thinking bad of you because you didn't know who it was of. I would list his cheesy porn, but I'm a mom with a kid just three years younger than you, so I'm not recommending any porn. Why, if you had a problem with me (even a few weeks ago) come to me and say "I'm only 16, and what you said hurt my feelings." If I had thought for a second you were a minor, I would have never said anything to hurt you. If you take a good look at my bio, you'll find that I am an advocate for children.{Wow, that's what's scares me} I'm so sorry I let this get out of hand. Just next time come and talk to me first before leaving a comment like that on my work.{Like you did for me when you randomly showed up saying that I 'remind you of a serial killer, was that a joke too because I couldn't tell} I mean, how was I suppose to interpret that comment, or the fact that you left it two hours after left the one about Patty? Think about that.{bear in mind that, as soon as I realised that she was grieving over the death of someone she knew, I raced back to her profile page and said that I was --"sorry about the loss of whoever it was and for whatever reason they were no longer with us all"-- and was right after I left the comment on her 'poem' and that the comment had nothing to do with the situation she was in}

Then, after I prove my partners existence by posting pictures of my daughter and partner together, I received this. Notice the area I have made bold;

November 19th 2011. --"STRIVER AND FAMILY: I would like to offer my sincere apology for all that has taken place. I won't leave another comment after this, but I think at the very least I should sincerely apologize to the family unit. My sarcastic American humor obviously deeply offended you a few weeks ago. Eileen as well. We Americans are so use to being sarcastic and sarcastic to one another that we forget sometimes how gruff we seem to foreigners, especially when they cannot see our face. Again, I apologize for the bad joke about Striver and Harvey, which started with a few men here reading the crazy love poems he wrote and published about me. After reading those and some of his explicit works about porn and drugs and looking at his pic they started calling him a serial killer. Now I've grown up with guys like him and, yep, they're pretty rough, but their the first to kill a man for hurting a girl. So I said I was more worried about Striver's pic because he was the only cute guy that was using a real picture of himself. It could have been any cute guy.  (I'm not hitting you by the way, just stating the obvious).  So it had nothing to do with Striver's work or him as a person or even the way he looked as an individual, but the fact that he was handsome. Like I said, it could have been any handsome young man on here if they had had a real pic up. W hat's ironic about all of this with Eileen three weeks ago, is that when Striver left that last comment on my wall, I knew that I had offended him and actually felt bad about it, then gained a LOT of respect for him when Eileen started attacking me and the hate crimes on my profile. Striver just said his piece and moved on. Then she left that nasty comment on Child Soldiers Playing in America. The fact she chose that one out of  all my works coupled with the attack on me because I choose to use my profile to help fight racism (which is key to helping end child slavery and other abuses against children) I started to wonder a little.  I deleted that, went to answer a comment from Bruce and saw a comment from Eileen. In her comment to Bruce she admitted to calling Striver a “jewboy” but said she didn't mean anything by it, it was just another word to her. Now, I don't know who raised her, but jewboy is just as bad a kike. Plain and simple. I sent a few writers here the details of that in an email (she was following my conversations and harassing other people). She saw the comments I left for Atkins about Striver being right about her and snapped. Here's where the ironic part comes in, if Striver would have asked me, and only me,  in the beginning and showed me where I could find the racist comments she left, he wouldn't have had to let other people know because I would have done it for him. I would have gave her a nice little section like the rest of the stuff on my profile, with links and everything.  I would have jumped at the chance to expose racism here! Then you left that comment.  I grew up rough, I mean I grew up ROUGH. I might have been wrong about Mrs' profile, which was highly suspicious until this evening, but I KNOW you're “the evil still spreads” and I KNOW why you left that comment on my poem. You read my comment and thought now was a good time to pounce. You either read it on J's page or Bruce's because those were the two out of the dozen you interacted with that day, so my mind won't be changed on that front. I usually delete the comments like yours and Eileen's off of my stories because they are offensive to the READER and are NOT constructive, nor meant to be.  Even Learner, who is one of the few people I don't like here, received a respectful, CONSTRUCTIVE comment from me on his work. Now you look like a nice family, and I'm not going to be goaded into fighting with that little girl's father. I am, out of respect for her and how precious she is, and out of respect for my own child, going to ignore any future attempts to bait me. My apologies about the Mrs' profile and the badly told joke (I never CALLED you a serial killer) are 100% honest, so I hope that lightens your hearts a little bit. Lots of love and respect for your family unit. Even more for your little girl."--

Although she never, directly, called me a serial killer she left me a message - which I have now deleted - saying that I --"reminded her of a serial killer"--. Still not sure if I understand the joke or not. Her American humour evades me. I guess she did apologize after all, I am unsure what she actually said sorry for because I didn't see her mention anything about her accusations in regard to my partners profile but did say about what had taken place. I presume that she couldn't even bring herself to say those things at all. Not much of an apology if you ask me. I deem 'GIDEON' and 'EILEEN' as bad as one another. 'EILEEN' is between 40 and 50 years of age and 'GIDEON' 'apparently' 36 with children, of whom, I feel deeply sad for.

Shortly afterwards I received this;

--"P.S. Only a suggestion, but as a decent human being and as a parent, maybe you shouldn't use your daughter's pic or post pics of her on your profile. Even if she wasn't beautiful, she might draw attention from someone who lives in your region of the world. Since you have also posted pics of yourselves, there is more... identification in regards to her family unit."-- {I didn't think she was going to be leaving another comment after the previous comment/essay, guess I must have imagined those words. Wait, no I didn't, there they are. As plain as the nose of my face}

The following message was left by myself on the main content of my profile on the site in question at approximately 7:00pm on the 20th of November 2011. Following the events that took place from the periods given above. Take into careful consideration the fact that I lost many close friends that I made over the duration of my stay at 'Booksie'. I shall not name them, in order to keep their identity safe. As well as having my ip address banned from the site and was cause for my untimely exit from the site.

'This is a message to friends and all that read it. As I know there are many earwigs and many prying people. This site is one of many which is used for networking and hate just like Facebook only on this site it is possible to remain anonymous while using its many features and make some people's experience difficult and spread their hate throughout the site. I have found most of my time here pleasant and enjoyable thanks to many wonderful writers and the kindness they harbour in their heart, mind and soul. I have found some users of this particular site to be malicious, unkind dictators. Using influence and means to judge and have others judge them. Ridiculing others and generally using the site to spread their evil and wickedness when they see fit. In some instances I have found that through commenting and voicing opinion, by leaving messages, people take great offence and feel the need for retribution or rebuke. {I have found myself} Simply replying to said comments to be sufficient in explaining and voicing ones opinion on someone else's opinion, that is what the site is for after all. I have also found that others feel they are so important and believe their profiles to be of such notoriety that everyone must always know of their business, possibly even, prior to knowing it themselves.

The past few weeks I have found my stay to be one of great trauma, great malice and painfully neglectful activities. I feel a terrible sadness for the time that has been wasted in these foolish endeavours and am thankful that I can leave this site knowing that those who have been as such and those who have done as such are well aware of their actions and their intents. People may now rejoice under their banner of unity in this displeasure and celebrate the leaving of me. I know that there are those who are sad to hear that I am no longer going to be part of this site anymore. But after I have had to, not only, endure racist remarks as well as accusations of plagiarism. I have also been submitted to constant abuse, I shall not name anyone in my final farewell though those of whom I speak know of what I speak. Though I will finish by saying this. Sorry for any possible offences I have caused by way of opinion and can I also sincerely apologize for any hurtful things I may have said. For I did not mean to cause any misunderstandings or be misunderstood and deeply regret the fact that this may have taken place. I am shocked to think that anyone has taken my words under a misconception of how I was actually feeling and I find it hard to understand people's reasonings for their actions, words and opinions sometimes as I would only ever wish for people to let me explain myself more thoroughly in order to straighten out any confusion in those regards. Lastly I would like to make a point about the writing here on this site. Although there are many writers here who all wish for appraisal but do not always get it. Even though they have potential and an incredibly high quality and standard of work, I can say that considering my writings, I have had a great many comments and friendly words from many. I won't start to name as the list is far, far too long.

I would like to take this time to thank them and wish them luck on their further writings and hope that they all find what it is they are looking for. Sadly that is all I have to say, there is a great more that I wish I could say about what one person or another has said recently as well as in the past and no doubt after they have read this and become upset by it, unfortunately, some of the comments towards my person have either been deleted by myself because of how upsetting they were or those - not mentioned - have removed them themselves for whatever reason they had for doing so. Any who, I now know that - in short - I must be more aware of people such as these in the future. That is all I wish to say about that. Thank you for your time and patience. 8D remember everyone" - CEMEL DOCHE - ' KNOW THYSELF '

PLEASE DO NOT CLICK ANY LINKS BELOW AS NONE OF THEM HAVE PATHWAYS, AND SO, DO NOT LEAD ANYWHERE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE.

Take into account the dates of posts. They are in reverse order.

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I MUST APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR THE GREAT LENGTH AND LARGE AMOUNT INCLUDED IN THE LIST BELOW. THIS IS ALMOST MY ENTIRE WORKS.

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Only a poem Reads 25 Comments 7 Likes 3

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: {{Nov  7, 2011}} Just a poem I had on my mind

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A constant reminder Reads 27 Comments 7 Likes 24

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Nov  3, 2011 Things can take there toll.

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D'EVIL IN DISGUISE Reads 34 Comments 11 Likes 13

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Oct 30, 2011 SOME FEEL DEVILS TAKE HUMAN FORM. WHAT ABOUT YOU?!

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Self - faith Reads 24 Comments 10 Likes 11

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Oct 29, 2011 A poem about faith in oneself and humanity .8D

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DEAD is the ISLAND Reads 21 Comments 5 Likes 12

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Oct 23, 2011 A POEM ABOUT A GAME RECENTLY RELEASED -'DEAD ISLAND'

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Colourful imaginations & representations Reads 18 Comments 3 Likes 6

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Oct 21, 2011 A poem about colours that remind us of things.

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Words numb to some Reads 34 Comments 15 Likes 17

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Oct  9, 2011 sometimes words mean nothing at all.

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Metro apocalypse Reads 24 Comments 7 Likes 12

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Oct  7, 2011 A poem about the game METRO 2033-  'fear the future'

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A darkened mind Reads 36 Comments 13 Likes 14

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Oct  5, 2011 A mind that becomes wraught with darkness.

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Alan will Wake Reads 25 Comments 7 Likes 13

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Sep 21, 2011 A poem about an incredible video game / novel.

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The bad still dwells in me Reads 20 Comments 19 Likes 17

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Aug 30, 2011 Someone regretting their young life.

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Decisions,decisions Reads 501 Comments 87 Likes 62

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Aug 25, 2011 So many decisions throughout life.

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What am I to do- without you ? Reads 52 Comments 31 Likes 20

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Aug 16, 2011 A deep sadness overcomes me when I think about lost love.

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A remembrance of love Reads 53 Comments 29 Likes 20

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Aug 14, 2011 A poem about someone special and how I keep remembering them.

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The hardship, that is, -LIFE Reads 30 Comments 15 Likes 21

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Aug 10, 2011 Life can be an endless hardship for some people.

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Slowly losing my mind Reads 71 Comments 20 Likes 40

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Aug  7, 2011 A poem about losing your mind and what makes you you.

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It's all in my head Reads 45 Comments 24 Likes 22

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Aug  1, 2011 I was thinking a lot about what someone said.

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Understanding how to think about the meaning of being confused Reads 28 Comments 14 Likes 16

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Jul 23, 2011 A really, really confusing poem about being confused.

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Lonely is the lonesome Reads 33 Comments 12 Likes 15

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Jul 22, 2011 Being alone with only ones mind is a sad affair

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RAP TO RESPECT Reads 22 Comments 7 Likes 11

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Jul 18, 2011 A RAP GIVING RESPECT TO A FELLOW BOOKSIAN

 

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Life flashes before my eyes Reads 45 Comments 21 Likes 16

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Jul 13, 2011 I've heard that when you die your life flashes before your eyes.

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Life is nothing without love Reads 25 Comments 13 Likes 18

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Jul 11, 2011 Love makes life what it is. Without love there would be.

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This is this and that is that Reads 44 Comments 25 Likes 18

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Jul  8, 2011 To have one you must have the other.

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Missing you too much Reads 43 Comments 21 Likes 18

A Poem by striver7777 Posted: Jul  7, 2011 A poem about missing that someone special.

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