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Location: Springfield, United States

Gender: F

Member Since: January 2015

Last online: August 2018

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Last Updated Jun 19, 2018

I Am Free

Hiya, Booksies.


*~~ Personal Updates ~~*

Read here to get into my business.

I am free.

I feel like I have a purpose now - a purpose to keep living, to keep fighting, to keep dreaming; and it all feels absolutely wonderful.

Recently, I was able to get out of my other job. I won't be longer working in the fast food business. I felt that staying in the food/customer service will help me build up my confidence for myself and my social skills, so I decided to be a barista. It's better than being a cook/janitor in a small hamburger joint, so I pray to the gods in the heavens to continue to bless me with their fortunate wishes of luck and gratitude.

In other cases, I seem to be accepted into the college I wish to attend. I'm still deciding on what I want to pursue, but I'm looking towards physical therapy or pharmacy. Those two are the ones I mostly resemble with, because I'm very interested in medical assistance/science, and I just like to be there to help others. I will be doing more research, so I can have enough preparation and time for the fall semester.

And my parents know more about the relationship between me and Rasmus. Sort of. They know we're together and that we're a couple, but they don't know the full story of the so called "accidental proposal." My mother seems very supportive and can still be cautious of times, and my father is still skeptical and gets annoyed about the talk of him from time to time, but he seems to accept that we're together.

Not everything is perfect, there's still some things I need to work on, and I'm really trying. There are times it gets really bad, like I think more about financial issues that I haven't fully encountered yet, such as car insurance and visa expenses for Rasmus. And the existential crisises mentally and emotionally break me sometimes and gets to a point where the depression comes back again and again, like I'm struggling to swim through chaotic ocean waves, fighting one after another just so I can stay above the surface to breathe even just a little bit, but the ocean doesn't give me a break and just keeps drowning me over and over again, dragging me down closer and closer to the ocean floor, where everything's calmer and silent, but it's freezing, it's dark, and I'm so alone.

But I keep swimming up.

I don't really know why. I guess I feel like I'll be making such a selfish decision if I just drop everything just because I felt like I couldn't deal with everything anymore, or maybe I just didn't want to be a burden for my family or Rasmus if I kept being depressed all the time, but I kept going, swimming closer and closer back up to the surface to see the sun again, to realize I was right underneath the eye of a hurricane, where everything's brighter and calmer and easier to breathe.

I feel so free, and I will keep fighting, so I can be there for others. If I can't help myself, I want to be there for the people I truly care about. I want to be there for my parents, for my brothers, for my cat, for my fiance and our kids whenever we get them and our grandkids. I want to be there when no one else could be there for them, because I don't want them to feel as abandoned as I felt. I want to take care of them just as I wish someone was there to take care of me.

I will keep being free for as long as I can, so the others I love can be free too.



*~~ Writers Appreciation Section ~~*

Check out these wickedly wonderful writers and their publishes. (You can find them on my Reading List! I usually update this, so check it out every once in a while to see if you appear on my list.)


SGAuthor - Silvia Grey

AntiheroNightmare - Morbus & Presence

Decim - The Homo Superiors

Zeej Hawkins - Neighbors

Raechelle Adams - Sol Sisters

MPhlox - Adobe Slabs

P.D. North - To Whom It May Concern

MsSolfegge - Hexameron

Rose Burg - The Run Away

Sotherin - Nocturne

glitchywriter - Complicated

drone0601 - The Moriantes Boy

Jeff Bezaire - Deleria

Mastera - Emental: The Series

Jc Bell - Infinite Limits

Andre Rimmer - Modern Love

Tim Klein - Adventure in a Virtual World

Christy R. - Sapphire Skies

BigBang - The Falls of God and Men

regalwriter - The Deceiver & Violet

Arcane Denial - Promises We Can't Keep

GhostOfTheRain - The Walking Game



*~~ Published Recommendations ~~*

Here are some personal suggestions on which creations of mine you should check out and read.


Real Life

In an other worldly place filled with spirits, gods, and demons, an adolescent human child finds themselves lost, losing any memory of who they were and where they originally came from. Struggling to find all the answers, they journey through the various mystical islands and meet strange creatures that serve as either their allies or their enemies.

They have to discover who to trust, who to save, who to forget, and do what they must in order to go back home. They have to do whatever it takes to go back to Real Life.


I Taste Your Color

"Your color is completely different. And it's driving me insane."

Katherine Park sees the world differently than everyone else. For some reason, she sees the world that others don't: in color. And the only way she sees them is by hearing the colors.

She grows into it, accepting the colors she grew up with: the pale and murky, sounding as the town she grew up in. It wasn't what she expected the second she started going to school, and it wasn't too much of a problem. Kat isn't one to be out there in the open anyway, so she keeps quiet, keeping the purity of her color as much as she can...

And that's where Ariel Oakley takes over.

Also reserved and more mysterious, Ari and his family moved from busy London to the small and safe suburban area in Portland, Oregon for reasons unknown.

Not knowing anyone else besides those who've been born and raised in the town borders such as herself, Kat goes beyond the boundaries she made for herself to peel more of Ari's color, his reasons, his past, and his secrets, including her own.


A very special fictional memoir-like story inspired and dedicated to a very close childhood friend.


All Things Twisted

Enter Teralyn, a young lady who moves into Slyva, an infamous neighboring town from her old one where all is well when all is not. Tempted to make a new start in her life apart from her already crazy family and past, she finds a job, a home, and a sign that everything will goes as planned.

That is until she fell off the roof.

That is until she was caught by some guy in her backyard.

With an obsession with anything dealing with the mystical and the abnormal, the idea suddenly becomes a reality for her, and the heavens above continue to pour down havoc on Teralyn after one faithful day.

Isn't that the point of telling this story if everything goes as planned in a town that doesn't?


This Is Not A Dream

When Jack Mansen, a troubled ambiguous senior, fails to stick to the basics of high school survival, surviving in general doesn't seem to be necessary anymore. With Isaiah Lyall, the faithful sidekick and only person Jack can trust, they do whatever they can to waste their time everyday until high school's over.

That is until Isaiah dies in a car crash on the way home, with Jack feeling responsible.

However, ever since the event, Jack gets the weirdest dream, as if Jack's reliving the day of Isaiah's death, all over again. And so, Jack twists their fate, avoiding the crash, avoiding their best friend's own death. When Jack wakes up the next day, Isaiah is alive and well, as if nothing happened.

Was it all just a dream?


Back On Track

"But what if I don't want a life-changing experience?"

Kobayashi Masa, nearly about 18 and living in a small town of just school and family life, is being ushered to board a plane from Canada to Japan, forcing her to be an exchange student and adjust to the Japanese lifestyle for a year. Why she's becoming one, she doesn't fully understand why, but to fulfill her parents' request and to know more, she goes.

Along the way, she bumps into the most unusual group of strangers she never should have met: Miyamoto Hikaru, the lighthearted travelling dreamer; Nakajima Yuuki, the intense sassy otaku; Oshiru Atsuko, the ambitious multitalented genius; Kurosawa Kyou, the mischievious underground celebrity; and Hisakawa Ren, the realistic scarred outcast.

As their paths intersect and create one collision after another, Kobayashi has to determine whether or not she can keep on the tragic disaster that continues to take place in her changing life or do whatever it takes to get back on track.



Sorry for such a long news update, but this is all what I needed to announce! Congrats if you reached the end here! (The colours are to help you concentrate on what you read; if it didn't I'm so sorry...) I can't wait to publish more content for you to read!


Stay weird and creative.

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Hiya Booksie, I'm Isabelle Hansen.

♀ | '98 | USA | Taurean | Asian | 150 cm/5 ft | INFP-T | Hufflepuff | Engaged to a Dane

A constant dreamer & smol professional internet hobo; forever stuck in the clouds of the internet; deep in a blackhole of existential crises. Default settings: awkward, quirky, sarcastic.





rasmus (that's my hubby!) // chilling & sleeping // aesthetics (I don't know what it exactly is, check my tumblr?) // anime & manga // art // baby animals // baking // books // cosplay + conventions // kawaii app games (like neko atsume!) long walks // music (alternative; indie; rock; jazz) // nostalgic daydreams // organizing things because I'm absolutely bored // pastel colors // plants // soft neutral-colored clothes // sweet food // taking photos // tapping when lost in thought // traveling (the process, not the preparation) // video games // youtubers (they ruined me)



anxiety & stress // arguing/drama // being alone or forgotten // disrespect/dishonesty // extreme hot/cold weather // fakers/liars/rude people in general // horror movies (horror's rad, i just can't take horror movies) // insomnia/nightmares // lightning (i like the sounds of rain/thunder though) // mockery/humiliation // motion sickness/nausea // myself usually // my scoliosis // negativity // no internet // people // racists, sexists, etc.




All we do is think about the feelings we want to hide. 

Everything I will type on here are the little thoughts, dreams, nightmares, fantasies, realities, memories, and inspirations stuck in my small head that will be put on this digital journal in form of stories for people like you to read. The catergory I usually list my stories as a default is Young Adult, and they can have some twist of another genre with it, like thriller or fantasy, so have fun with whatever Eeveelution I come up with.

Check out my News if you want to read some of my stuff, but can't find which ones to starting reading. (At the bottom, there's a Published Recommendations list of shit I wrote.) I really do appreciate the time you would put aside just to read whatever crap I felt like putting down here.

I actually love hearing from you guys, so if you have any stories you wrote and recommend me for me to read or some thoughts you'd like to share with me, anything that you like or dislike, or just wanna strike up a conversation or vent out some rage, I am here. Anything you want to talk about, I am here for you and willing to listen. Drop a comment on any of my stories that I'm usually always editing (as I'm prone to be in denile of any mistakes made in them) or email me at any time. I'm usually available whenever and wouldn't mind to chat or give some advice about how bullshit life can be for anyone and how to make it less sucky.




Take me back to the basics and the simple life. ☆

It's nice to think I have plenty of time on my hands, but since I don't, please do take a quick peek at my other social media and *stalk* me at how I live through my boring, useless life through aesthetics and other fellow internet hobos.

Tumblr:  http://www.cecilisabeth16.tumblr.com/ http://www.invisabellespasian.tumblr.com/

Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/InvisabelleMai

YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/KaluluwaPhilipinas16 https://www.youtube.com/c/isabellaceciliaelizabeth 

(I've been inactive, I know, sorry, but I got plenty of videos planned!)

*Please don't actually stalk me, I will not hesitate to call my personal Rasmus to hunt you down.*

The links are above to make it easier for lazy scrollers and quick scanners, but hey, if you made it this far, I'm actually very proud of you. Like seriously, congratulations, you definitely have a better chance for success in life than I could ever grasp, damn.




Sometimes to stay alive you got to kill your mind. ☼

Inspiration is hard to come by, so I'll admit there are things like the photos for my book covers or certain characters in certain fanfictions because I was somehow in a certain fanfiction mood are not mine but I do always give credit to the original creator(s).

I personally like to type out my stories first before I give credit because there are some things I don't want or some things I like to add, so whenever I'm finalize my stories, I'll have a credit page of sorts at the end. It'll best to avoid copyright and give credit to the approprite creators that have inspired me to write out my crazy thoughts from my dried-up, crumpled, flower of a brain.

If something seems recognizable and you can tell it's not mine, more likely I pulled it from another source, but that's usually for fanfictions, so I will give credit to the original source(s) at the end of my stories or somewhere in my summaries, depending on how indeceisive I am. I kinda going on my own path and writing my own original content at the moment, but things like book covers or certain things mention in my stories like some songs or websites can appear and will be notified in the credit page at some point. Just whenever I'm satified with whatever bullshit I created.




Don't be normal. See what you want to see.


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