Hello, my name is Elizabeth, you can call me, E, Elizabeth, Angel, or pretty much whatever you would Like. I found this site through another site that I have been active on for going on five years (www.experienceproject.com) I have been doing a LOT of writing for as long as I could remember. Countless stories, hundreds (at least) poems, two short story, and some erotica (rated x) I enjoy writing, even if no one bothers to read my stuff. I don't write for others, I write for myself, because its something that I personally love to do. Writing has always helped me through things. Whenever I would be really upset, or just having a rough time, I would turn to my pen and paper, and than later, my word document. It always helped me just to write down my thoughts, my feelings, and whatever else.
I have been through some dark things, losing a child, being raped, and molested by people whom were suppose to love and protect me. I have lost people that I have love, broken promises, broken friendships, and my share of broken hearts. Whenever something tragic would happen, the only thing that would truly help me get through it, was writing, I am not good at verbally speaking (I have a stutter) and I could never get the right words to come out of my mouth, but if I would write it all down than I would start feeling better. Writing was my support group and my therapy. A main reason why I was on experienceproject was because I was able to write it all down and people could support me. It was good for me, and it brought me closer with some of the most amazin' people in my life.
I recently came to realization about my sexuality. I had always classified myself as bi-sexual, but after not soo recent events it came clear to me, that the reason why my relationships with men were never satisfying (and not just sexually) was because that I was really a lesbian. Or so I thought, but the more I think about it, I truly do believe that I am bi-sexual. I just am extremely confused about my sexuality...its not something that is easy to come to terms with, and something that I can just make a decision about Coming out was the hardest thing I have had to do in an extremely long time. It lost me a huge part of my family, and it has me questioning just about everything else in my life at this moment.
I am really struggling to trust people, especially as of late, having been played BIG time, it has taken a HUGE toll on me, and has me questioning just about EVERYONE in my life, weather in real life, or virtually. I have had trust issues ever since I was a little girl, being bullied in school, and being raped makes it extremely hard for you to trust people to begin with, but when you put your trust and faith in people and they turn around and take advantage of that and stabbed you in the back, well it leaves you messed up for a long time.
I am here on this site, to read, writing, meet others and hopefully make some friends along the way. It takes a while for me to trust people, but I am usually very friendly with people, and won't lie to you, if you want to know something about me, just ask me, if its not too personal, I will share with you, if it is, well give me some time, and gain my trust and I might confide in you.
One major thing to know about me. I am a friend to the end, if you friend me, you will always have my faith in you, and in our friendship. You will have my support through anything, and most of all you will have someone who will be there for you through anything, and who you can always lean on and count on. I am a very loyal friend, and always will be. If you are my friend and you ever need anything feel free to count on me, day and night, I'll be the best friend you could have ever expected via internet.
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