At Saint Luke’s Hospital in New Bedford, Massachusetts, after 28 hours of labor on June 30th, 1988 at 3:08 PM, via C-section, I was born and declared a boy and to this very day that fact holds true...
I was loved by all who came into my presence and several medical professionals were enthralled with the amount of strength and motor skill I demonstrated at such an early age.
My father never wanted children, I regret his rampant physical attacks on my mother after numerous attempts to coax her into getting an abortion, I still wish that weren’t the case, two parents would have been nice. I moved to Florida shortly before my third birthday and was raised by my Mom and Grandmother until around seven years old. I excelled in school, was tested as an “exceptional learner” and placed into the “gifted program”. I am thankful for my potential for intelligence, but regretful of the different standards I was held to.
My Mom met a man around my eighth birthday and he moved into our house, I was not happy. A couple of years later, one after the next I gained a half-brother, for a total of two in addition to me. I was not happy. I lost a lot of my positive traits and gained a lot of negative ones after this time. Eventually, around 11, the changes I had made caused my only extended family cease to be a part of my life. I had a bad reputation at school, a bad life at home, and no one except my Mom and grandmother. I began to spend as much time at friend’s houses as possible to gain the things I missed, and lose the ones I wanted to be rid of.
In high school, I dropped out after freshman year because I couldn’t take the way my school treated me anymore based on who I was. I also needed to work, or so I lied to my conscience. I had decided it that summer that. I was someone I and others important to me hated, and would change it. I lacked the skills and knowledge to do it, but I had the effort.
I was supposed to finish high school and graduate in 2006, I went to work for a while because we needed money in the house after the man who fathered my Brothers was stricken with cancer from sun exposure years before, and began to lose the battle. He died in 2004, I made ends meet where my Mom couldn’t quite reach, and Christmas was good that year because my Mom didn’t have to stress over how to give my Brothers what they wanted, I got employee discounts on all sorts of great gifts.
After bouncing around to multiple jobs, and admittedly some loafing, I acquired a GED in late 2008. In 2009, I continued working but decided that I’d never get where I wanted to be without college, I started that fall but couldn’t afford to go. So, I tried again in spring 2010 after strategizing and have not missed a semester yet, even during the summer. So far I have finished my AA degree and have transferred to University of South Florida for a Bachelor’s Degree. I am somewhat undecided on my path, I’d like to become an author, but I’m not sure how useful an English major would be for me otherwise. For now I am a Criminology major and will continue on the path to becoming a Lawyer.
I still live at home because I am a parental influence in my household, I hate this. However I help where I can, and this is where I can take on responsibilities. Feel worthy. My Mom had some major health issues which she has done miraculously recovering from, so the less she needs, the more I’ve considered getting out into the world. Altruist, though, I am not. I also still live with my family because of inability to get a good job and being home has the benefit of reduced cost of living. I am where I am needed, and also where I am best suited to be, at least at the moment.
My friends know me as "Big Mike", however, as the days tick by I am rapidly losing weight! I entered a contest (http://www.obesitynomorefl.com/patients_michaelf.php) to become a finalist to win a free Lap-Band (http://www.lap-band.com). The way the contest worked was: entrants must submit a written, spoken, or videotaped essay on why we deserve to win. Out of many entries I was chosen as one of 3 finalists. After my response/entry was chosen for the final phase, I worked very hard campaigning for myself and qualifying physically and mentally for the surgery via many medical appointments. In the beginning of April I was informed that I had won! After several more weeks of testing and pre-op liquid diet, on May 3rd, 2011 I had surgery to implant my band. As of February, 2013 I have lost 140 pounds! I feel better than I have in years!
In the near future I hope to gain foothold in a job that will take my education and abilities into account instead of the bottom-man roles I’ve been in so far. I hope to buy a home to live in Lakewood Ranch or Anna Maria. My life goal overall is to earn enough to save and to begin to enjoy hobbies, relationships, and life. I don’t like to talk about the past or the future right now, I like to wake up and go from there. I have dreams, I have hopes, I have aspirations, but they seem so insurmountable, and at times so distant, that I question if I will ever reach them!
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