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* My main topics of wrigting are starts to fantasy novels with female heroines, miscellenious poetry and children's stories told in rhyme (my faveorite so far!).
Who I wanted to be (and perhaps you can tell me who I am)
Ever since I was little I knew that I wanted to do something important with my life, something meaningful - to find that one thing, that one thing I was the best at, that came naturally, that one unique abillity... like a superhero, only without the tights. I think I just wanted to know, really know, that I was living my life to the fullest of my abbilities. To me that ment using my own talents, which required finding what those were first, and doing something meaningful; something that changed the world around me for the better.
So, basically, I wanted to be good at something and I wanted that something to make me feel good - to help others, make a difference, wakeup full of purpose and not need coffee (or chocolate) to keep alert. This idea of what one's career, or ones life's purpose, should be was probably formed by my enviroment: I have four siblings, each had chosen a different career path, so ofcourse I had to be different too (hence being the same I guess - confusing right?). Being different isn't as easy as it sounds.
This is all extremly self-analytical, nothing new for me, but it is after all natural to search for a purpose. Without finding that thing that nakes you feel needed or imporantant, feel that you've livied up to your potential...without it you would always feel you screwed up. Like, if there was or is a deity somewhere, observing each being's life on earth he, ro she, wouldn't be happy with me.
I still believed that you can do anything you set your mind to, but why plow, dig and tunnel your way to mediocrity in a chosen field when you could have instant gratification in the course set by your own natural abillities?... I know it dosen't really work that way, but wouldn't it be great if it did? I once believed finding my area of expertice would be my golden ticket (and if it truly lead to a magic chocolate factory you wouldn't hear any complaints from me).
While I am not still not jaded, I know that all I can do right now is pour my hopes, dreams and fantasies out here - hope you at least enjoy them :).
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